I've been dating this guy for almost a year now and just recently over the summer I started hanging out with my friend who I've known for years. Hes had a huge crush on me since forever and I never liked him back. But over the summer I started to get some feelings for him. This all started after my boyfriend stopped talking to me. We wouldn't talk for weeks. So I hung around my friend a lot out of that time. He came over a couple of times and we didn't do anything besides just talk, he respects the fact that I have a boyfriend. Eventually I went to his house and we just watched movies, and after he would walk me home. Him and my boyfriend dislike each other because someone told my friend that my boyfriend was talking bad about him. So eventually I started talking to my boyfriend again. And my friend would always tell me that I should break up with my boyfriend because he doesn't treat me right. Which is partially true. Most of my friends actually say that.And one day I was hanging out with my friend and on the way home I told him I liked him. Obviously he liked me back because he's had a crush on me since forever. He was telling me to break up with my boyfriend so we can be together but I didn't because I love my boyfriend. He actually started to cry and I told him I was really sorry and said goodbye. We ended up fighting about it so we didn't talk for a couple of days. He told me he was sorry about what happened and I forgave him.Somehow my boyfriends best friend knew about what was going on and told my boyfriend. Then my friend and boyfriend got into a fight with each other but it wasn't about me. It was about him talking bad. I got into another fight with my friend again about it, trying to defend my boyfriend. I eventually had to tell my boyfriend about what happened that summer but I lied to him saying that I was over my friend when I really wasn't. My friend apologized to me so now were friends again. I didn't tell my boyfriend because I knew he'll be upset. But I did anyway. My boyfriend didn't seem to care but told my best-friend that he didn't want me hanging around my friend.Its been a month since then and I like my friend even more. I don't know who to choose between though because when I'm around my friend and I feel like nothing else matters. We have so much in common and most of my memories are with him.I have moments where I just want to be with him all the time and just relive everything. But now he has a girlfriend, but he tells my best friend about how he's only going out with his girlfriend because he wants me to think he moved on but he hasn't. Hes defended me in so many ways and has lost friends because they didn't like me.He was always there for me no matter what and knows how I feel about everything and helps me out. He randomly texts me sometimes to come outside and he'll be on my steps and we'll just talk for hours. My boyfriend is really sweet but he always asks me questions about what I like about him and its so annoying! Hes a little boring though. He kind of controls my feelings. Because whenever he's mad or upset I get mad and upset. Or if he's happy, I'm happy or sad. Also whenever I try to break up with him.. because I have tried he always talks about moving to a different country or killing himself. Which makes me feel so bad so I stay. Hes also very immature and can be rude to me. Every time he's mad at me he doesn't tell me but he tells his friends which are also my friends, which is something I hate.We never made out, because I never wanted to with him for some reason, but he doesn't know that.But I care about him a lot we have gotten close and once were best friends. My boyfriend forgives me for every thing that I do bad or mess up, even though some say that's good I wish he didn't. But my friend is also going to break up with his girlfriend soon.He tells me everything, were really close. I just don't know who to choose because they both are equal in some way. I've tried asking my friends for help but no one seems to know the answer. So this was the only way to get help.. I really need help! Who do I choose?