Hi my name is ace(last name). I'm in love with this guy named Danny. I never wanted to be it just happened. His family teats me like a third son. I'm even in the family photo hanging on their wall. He's a big football player and I'm the average sized swimmer although he's Mexican he's a giant and when we wrestle he kicks my when we wrestle which used to happen all the time until now that I think of it when I stared falling for him. We argue all the time even over stupid stuff at times he even makes me feel worthless I mean he treats his female cousin like one the guys but not me. Twice when I've slept over and we had to share the floor he's rolled on top of me the first one I woke up to the second one was at his brothers house and Danny's sister in law saw him on me but he's a big guy and probably just rolled on me. He's also aways asking me for back rubs I do it to be nice but there's times when I have to stop because I'm afraid ill kiss him then and there. Just today he came over to my house he rarely comes over but when ever my brother went to use the bathroom he'd call me int the room an ask me for a misawsh (sorry bad spelling and grammar). Then he acts like he's annoyed of me and when I asked he said that if I annoyed him he would just kick me out like he dodo with my bro but today he said that I annoyed him in front of friends for no reason. He'll also say some pretty gay jokes like bromance type stuff with his other guy friends including my bro but won't act like that with me. He also says that's gay or tell me that I'm not into a hot girl when I'm around. Before I bore u to death with the rest of the story I'm just going to say I'm emotionally and mentally confused and I can't ask him of fear it will screw everything up. Help me

I am struggling with why you would want to be with someone who treats you so poorly. I guess none of us have control of who we fall in love with most of the time.

I am not a "Senior Member" or Guru of Answers here, but it seems to me that you should be less available for him and maybe seek a relationship with 1) someone who is gay/bi as well; and 2) someone who treats you with respect and the way you should be treated. But you should also respect yourself and only be around people that treat you well.

If he asks you why you aren't around be honest - "because you treat me poorly."

Good luck with it all.