We absolutely share some type of love for each other. But she is no longer in love with me it seems.

She needs time for herself. You know how it goes.

We ended our relationship on good terms. That was before she told me she doesn't see us being back together.

Since then I thought she was only telling me what I thought it was that I needed to hear to move on and become a better person... to eventually be strong enough to let us work together (I was insecure in our relationship).

Today, one month after we first broke up. One month after I left the country and came back to home..

I feel like I cannot keep doing this to myself. I cannot continue thinking that there are hidden messages in her emails. She wants us to one day be best friends like we used to. As much as I love her and want that as well.. I know I cannot handle that. I know what we had was special beyond what I've ever felt before, and that was before we actually got together.

I don't want to hurt her by telling her this, but I absolutely need to know why she is no longer fighting for us. I know this is going to hurt me as well. I just feel it's the only way I can let go. Maybe this time around it will make her see that she has lost me. Maybe this time she will know for sure how it feels.

I can't say I had a specific question... I suppose I just want to hear some words of wisdom from the experienced on something like this... I've already texted her I need to talk to her, but she is most likely at work right now.

I've been in your position in the last few days, believe me its better to move on..
Just waiting around, hoping she will call you and tell you you're going to be back together will kill you..
My ex asked for 1month break, and said that we will be together and just needs time to her self. (I also was insecure in my relationship)
Yesterday I talked to her and wanted to clear things up and told me that our relationship was over for good.
Since yesterday I'm trying not to give in to sadness, trying to not think about her even though I still have her on Facebook and have pictures of both of us..
I have hope that I will be together with her but still don't want to drag myself around that.
It will be hard at first but trust me you will get over it.. If she decides she still wants to be with you she will let you know, so why give in to pain, being sad over it, if its meant to be it will happen. Don't worry, you can do this.

Thank you for responding exenis. And you are completely right. Whatever the reason they may have for leaving us, it's a decision they have made. In time they will know if it was the right one or not but we can't really be letting ourselves be their backup plan.

I think I feel better now, I've got to pack everything of yet up and respect what we had. Now I need to focus on myself.. It will be hard but I suppose anything worth doing cones with a price. Thanks again mate, helped put some things into perspective.