incywincyspider
Sep 30, 2012, 03:20 PM
I lied to my boyfriend and probably every other friend in college about a disease I apparently have. I know I was wrong to do so and I have no idea why I did it. It was probably an attention seeking thing and yes, I have discovered myself to be an attention seeker. My boyfriend is trying to find me a doctor and he did. Now he wants reports and all that so that he could get the doctor to check me out. I told him there is a treatment in a few months, if that goes on well, I would be perfect. But, he wants to do everything, and now I am clueless. I know I'm in trouble, I know I was wrong and I will never do it again, ever! But this is killing me on the inside. I can't sleep, my head is splitting in slow motion, I could almost feel it. I just need a way to get out of it. Can't confess because then, things could get worse. I will make it right. My plan was to get things right by going away for a month and returning and saying everything is all right. Now I can't do that either because me boyfriend is crazily in love with me. I don't know why I did it, now I know it was wrong ad its not easy to get out of.But I am lost, I could almost kill myself right now. Should I? No!! But is there any other way out of this??