I think I have HOCD because ever since summer of last year I've been have homosexual thoughts and they have never occoured. It's like they just popped up and I started panicking. These thoughts come and go every signle day and there causing me to have suicidal thougts. It makes a big impact on me because I'm a Christian and its very tempting and I'm scared for my future and my actions. It really worries me and I REALLY Don't want to be gay. I still have lots of feelings for boys but it's the thoughts that are ruining me that are causing my feelings. I just don't know how to ask my parents for help because I'm scared.

I think I have HOCD because ever since summer of last year I've been have homosexual thoughts and they have never occoured. It's like they just popped up and I started panicking. These thoughts come and go every signle day and there causing me to have suicidal thougts. It makes a big impact on me because im a Christian and its very tempting and im scared for my future and my actions. It really worries me and I REALLY DONT wanna be gay. I still have lots of feelings for boys but its the thoughts that are ruining me that are causing my feelings. I just dont know how to ask my parents for help because im scared.


Can you talk to a school counsellor? If you're a Christian, talk to your clergyman/woman.

If you are having suicidal thoughts you need to tell your parents.

EDIT: Here you have another emotional problem - https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/mental-emotional-health/do-have-anxiety-disorder-699208.html

I think you need to be honest and post what the true problem is.

You seem to have a lot of things going on right now. I would highly suggest therapy.