Im allways shouting screaming crying I'm so sad and upset with life... I want to be happy but something goes wrong in my life all the time I used,to be addicted to trammadol but I've been clean for nearly four months from tramadol. Its ruining my life I just want to be normal...

It sounds like you are having a difficult time at the moment with your emotional state. This might be due to withdrawals from the drug you were addicted to though I would talk to your doctor about this. The emotional roller coaster that you are on might have to do with the chemistry of your body such as hormones and so forth or distress caused by past traumatic events. The key is to alter your perception of how you see life and the events that occur involving you every day. You can change the way you think, behave and relate to others but you cannot do this alone. A self-help group suited to your needs which focuses on changing your unhealthy thinking to healthy thinking is a good idea. Professional counselling is a good idea. Cognitive behavioural therapy is a good idea. Seeing your local doctor to get advice about your emotional state is a good idea - he can do your bloods to see if there are any imbalances in your system to explain how you feel. I hope this helps.