Hi am having some confusing times in my life and it's getting tougher to cope with my life...

First let me begin my saying I'm an addict clean for 3 years in Feb. 2013. I have started to thinking of using. I smoked crack and the last time I was using I was just waiting on the heart ache, which brings me to where am at I at today. Thinking of using this would give me the attack am wanting seems the only way out...

Since stop drugs I've replaced with women. NA has taught me that I've just changed drugs... I just ended two relationships. I've been end for three months yesterday... And yes when I did I did it ugly, burning bridges... It's best I know because I've been acting as if I was retired letting my business fall apart to where I've lost most all of it... But now just as the drugs will do me I am broke at home alone wanting one more, this time it's one more woman my drug of choice... I just don't want to be lone... And am hurting crying out for help!

Get yourself to an NA meeting, and call your sponsor. That's what you should have been taught, for these situations. You do have a sponsor don't you?

Call before you use, get help before you use!!!

Hi am having some confusing times in my life and it's getting tougher to cope with my life...

First let me begin my saying I'm an addict clean for 3 years in Feb. 2013. I have started to thinking of using. I smoked crack and the last time I was using I was just waiting on the heart ache, which brings me to where am at I at today. Thinking of using this would give me the attack am wanting seems the only way out....

Since stop drugs I've replaced with women. NA has taught me that I've just changed drugs... I just ended two relationships. I've been end for three months yesterday... And yes when I did I did it ugly, burning bridges... It's best I know because I've been acting as if I was retired letting my business fall apart to where I've lost most all of it... But now just as the drugs will do me I am broke at home alone wanting one more, this time it's one more woman my drug of choice... I just don't want to be lone... And am hurting crying out for help!

Quitting the drug doesn't end the problems of addiction, does it?

It sounds like you have adopted at least some of the concepts of NA so talaniman's advice seems a good first step. In my field, drinking disorders, this is often referred to as "dry drunk." You are at the point that you have to take some action either pro or con. You are going to move in the direction of addressing your problems, making life changes or return to the illusory realm of drug use to escape them momentarily. Very risky situation at the moment. But it's your choice.

Is there anything further that might help?