I know there so much issue like this already.. But I need some advice..

If u read my first post you must be know that I can't walk and have scholiosist (don't know how to spell it)

So here's the story

We've met at online game and become a real couple.. We live 2hours apart.. And we've been in this relationship for 4years and 8months..

We rarely seeing each other, it's like once a year.. But we trust each other and we never cheat.. And this year we've got planned.. He would come to my bro wedd last month.. But he can't make it bcs his mother was sick.. And I accept it even it hurt.. But since then I easily get angry at him.. And I got angry bcs he just play all the time with his friends.. So we have less time to talk to each other (btw he is 23y.o).

Till one day we just get along after 3 days arguing.. Bfr he said to me that he don't want to argue anymore.. But the next day he gone out of no where.. I call his house and his bro told me that he was went out..

I've wait for hom till 2am but still no news at all.. The next day I called him and I was mad at him.. He just said sorry once.. Then he don't want to talk.. So I hang up..

15mnts later he text me ask to take a break.. I don't want that.. So I called him again but I got no answer.. Until 4days.. So I decided to go to his house..

At his house we talked about this.. He said he just want to play with his friends and he tired made me dissapointed and cried.. But there he still can hug and kiss me.. He even won't let me go.. So he hugged me all day long.. I just cried at him.. At first I want to break up with him.. But suddenly I refused to break up.. Sometimes at that day I felt like he want to break up.. But sometimes he won't.. When I stop crying he took a pict of us.. But at the end bfr I went home he said to me if I want to keep this ldr just wait.. He need some times to think.. And if I want to text him, he will reply..

He did reply my text for the last two days.. But yesterday is our monthsary.. So I decided to call him at the evening.. But I got no answer.. So I called his house again.. His father told me that he was sleeping.. Then I just text him.. Tell him happy monthsary and tell him I love him.. And tell him if he just want to play it's okay with me.. And I ask him to reply my text when he wake up.. But until this morning I got no reply.. I called him again but he still not answer it.. I text him again asked is he awake or not.. Got no reply too..

At the night when I got home after I visited him.. I called him and told him to finish this problem at the end of this month..

I don't know what he want.. He can be nice to me when we see each other.. But why he so cold to me when I text him? Why he not reply my text last night till now..

Is there someone can help me? I'm afraid of losing him.. I love him too much..