AntonChekhov
Jul 24, 2012, 06:26 PM
Right so for about a year I've fallen for a girl. She's the only person who comes off to me as not absorbed in the ridiculous of high school, and is quite similar to me. She's probably the only person I've truly "loved" so to speak. Now at first I was just a nice guy, and friendzoned her like a boss (bestfriendzoned might I add). Later, I figured out my stupidity and started cutting off communication with her for a while to defriendzone the situation. To my surprise it worked.
Summer time now and we're basically getting together, pretty well established that we like each other. But now, for no reason at all, I want her to leave me. While she's singing love songs and being happy to talk to me, I keep wishing she'd think of me as inadequate and move on. This clearly is not normal for me.
I don't even have self esteem issues. I feel awesome 99 days out of 100, and I have a great social life, but with this it's somehow different. I'd guess it's because I'm not a slick smooth talker or whatever, but if I really loved her wouldn't I want more than anything to try anyway? Why do I keep thinking she should stop wasting her time with me? It's as if a different me is saying it, thinking this. She doesn't even think there's a problem, and yet my mind is convincing me there is, when I don't even know what.
Any ideas as to what is going on with me?
Summer time now and we're basically getting together, pretty well established that we like each other. But now, for no reason at all, I want her to leave me. While she's singing love songs and being happy to talk to me, I keep wishing she'd think of me as inadequate and move on. This clearly is not normal for me.
I don't even have self esteem issues. I feel awesome 99 days out of 100, and I have a great social life, but with this it's somehow different. I'd guess it's because I'm not a slick smooth talker or whatever, but if I really loved her wouldn't I want more than anything to try anyway? Why do I keep thinking she should stop wasting her time with me? It's as if a different me is saying it, thinking this. She doesn't even think there's a problem, and yet my mind is convincing me there is, when I don't even know what.
Any ideas as to what is going on with me?