View Full Version : I don't want to live anymore
Brokenheart13
Jul 20, 2012, 08:05 PM
I feel like there's no reason to keep going. Nothing at all. Well I have a boyfriend and I love him to death. I have friends, and I have a family. But no matter what, I can't be happy. All I want to do is cry all the time, and I hate crying. I hae being weak and stupid. I hate getting attention, and especially from people who are sorry for me. I am only 16 years old, but I started being depressed since I was 12. I really don't know what caused it, but you could say my ed up family helped. My stepdad would beat up my mom, and he would always threaten me. They would always fight and say HORRIBLE things to me. I started being sad, and then the cutting started. When they found out, the only thing they said was, wow you should stop or I'll send you to one of those crazy people place you attention whore. Ive tried suicide three times, two of them I took a whole bottle of pills. Nothing happened. Third time I took a sleeping pill and went to the bathtub, but my sister found me. Things have been better, but all I can feel and see is sad. Sad. Sad. Im so sad. All the time. I see no reason for being alive. Im tired mentally, and Physically. And since no one ever listened to me my whole entire life. I Made this post so someone in the world would know how I'm feeling.
kandy25
Jul 20, 2012, 08:21 PM
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Only God can take your life away because he's the one who gave you life. Don't do it! I'm no one to tell you what to do. But you only get to live once so why live it sad! Nuts to everyone who hurt you! That should just make you a stronger person! That should be your motivation to keep on living, not to want to kill yourself! So why kill yourself?? Give yourself a chance instead of putting yourself down. Find a way to love yourself & just let it be because no matter what, life is great, but only if you allow it to be :) Smile -- it doesn't hurt!
LadySam
Jul 20, 2012, 10:15 PM
For starters, you are not alone, many people young and old have these feelings at some point in their life.
That is not said to minimize your particular situation, you are a unique individual with your own thoughts and feelings.
I will say that suicide is a cowardly way out of a temporary situation.
I think you should seek some counseling, perhaps talking with a guidance counselor at your school is a good place to start.
mogrann
Jul 21, 2012, 07:16 AM
I hear your pain. Please read the sticky at the top of the page I put some suggestions in there that may help.
https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/mental-emotional-health/suggestions-suicidal-thoughts-653654.html
Please talk to an adult besides your family (as it sounds like they don't understand your problems and minimize them). Tell the adult you want help and keep telling until someone listens to you.
I was like you with the self harm and suicidal attempts. I found help and am slowly getting better. It can be done, it is hard work but can be done.