I'm a 20 year old girl, this past year of my life has been Hell. The boy I loved more than life itself cheated on me after years of dating and living together. I moved into a friends home where I started drinking heavily and doing drugs. Short after, I went to a party and got raped. I stopped doing drugs and drinking for that reason, but I did sleep with another guy the same week. This guy became clingy and obsessive and hard to deal with.
I found out I was pregnant after horrible back pains and my stomach hurting so bad. The doctor said I was 6 weeks, at the time, which means it was the same week as those two.
Through time I considered an abortion, but the thought of me killing a child just wasn't in my cards. I would love to have this child, but the possibilities of it being a boy and growing up to have their face as a teenager, bringing back all of that scares me that I could never possibly love my child. I don't want my child anything like them, although I know that's not possible, I just could not live with that.
Now I have the choice, keep it, risk my future and bring my child up while I am still severely depressed, or give it to a loving family. I feel guilty being almost 16 weeks and still being depressed over the fact that all that stuff and more has happened. Losing the job I went to school for, moving home, gaining over 50 pounds. I don't even leave my house anymore, I just cry all day. How can I raise a child around that?
But then it's the idea, I'll walk down the street and wonder "is that my kid?" and be reminded when it's their birthday. I'll always think about it, and worry. What if it comes looking for me and demands why I didn't raise it? That stuff terrifies me.
I have no idea what to do. I have no doubt it my mind I would give that child everything it ever needed, ever wanted. I have so much support from my parents. But that doesn't make the decision any easier.
I know the decision is ultimately mine, but I'm tired of people telling me what to do solely on what they want. Give it up so you can have time to go out with me. Keep it because we want grandchildren. It never gets easier.
Please, an outside perspective is greatly appreciated. I know this was long, but I really hope this helps! Thank you all!

The decision is ultimately yours, no one else's. You need to take a deep breath, sit down and think about the circumstances. Weigh in every option and decide what the best thing to do is. Every choice will have it's own consequences, and you have the choice as to which you'd like to live with.

Consider this,

You're young, are you sure you can raise a child and continue to build your career?

And

The child will not always spite you for sending them away, I won't lie it's a possibility, but they should understand.

First you are not even able at this point to deal with who you are.

I hope you have found that drugs and drinking never bring any happiness and that perhaps that road is behind you. And to be honest it took thiis pregnancy to wake you up. ( or the rape anyway) Your education and job would have failed if you continued that life style.

And so you lost one job, there are 100's more

Also not knowing if you had sex with others a week or two before or after this date, but estimated conception dates are just that, most give or take a week or two, So if you had sex with others around the same time, it really could be others than those two.