Hey there ! M in a relationship for 4 years.. the 4 years were very special.. We had decided to get married when time comes.. we loved each other with true heart.. but actually his family stayed in another state and he was going to that place in a year . And I am 3 years younger to him.. he was about to complete his engineering,and I was about to begun.. so I decided to take admission in a engineering college in state where his parents stay so we thought he will be there after 1 year,and we could further be together.. but things started changing.. our fights,n as I did not have any friends in my hostel or college ,I just had one male friend.. I started sharing things with him,and a kind of attraction happened between us,but it wsnt love,he used to like another girls,and I loved my boyfriend,it was even clear in his mind.. I did not gave him importance above my boyfriend.. but more fights and my friend's forceful attitude forced me to get a bit physical with my friend.. but after that near the end of me and my bf's 4 years of relationships ,we were in deep love again.. and I tried telling him,bt because of fer of losing him,I couldn't.. n nw at about 4.5 years he read my past messages sent to my friend... but it was not continued from about 3 months... I xplained him everything... and I love only him... not that friend.. I broke all contacts with that friend... but I want my love back... I want my boyfriend back... I can die for him.. I love him really... I swear to god... more then anything in this world... I would die if he will not be mine :( help me please... how could I get him back?

OK I'm going kind of threw the same thing but the only thing you can do is to talk to him I mean if you really love him you will talk and tell him that you love him and sometimes that's not enough