When I'm not sad or depressed (which is all the time) I'm apathetic and to add I'm starting to feel angry. All these negative emotions are something I cannot get rid of.
I'm depressed because life is just a waste for me, full of pain and sorrow... After I feel miserable about this fact comes the apathy, and now I'm angry with myself because I can do anything feeling the way I feel, and I take out on my family and classmates. Truth be told, my biggest wish is to stop existing.

This is both a mental and philosophical issue for me, my depression comes from the fact that I don't see the point of being alive. Why I'm here? Am I here just to suffer? Is there a meaning to everything I do?. All I see is pain and hard-ship.