mrgreen123
Apr 19, 2012, 09:11 AM
First of all,I thank you for reading this
I'll write out everything
I have a huge crush on this girl since last year June.We are both 17yo.I started by slowly chatting with her on Facebook,then slowly I started saying hi to her in real life.Everything looks OK from the beginning.When I know she started playing this online game,I join it too.From there we both got closer.Then there was the 1 week holiday.We would play this game from morning,until the next morning.We would fight together,chat,and basically do everything together.We got close.Then on the same week there was this some kind of school event(we are not the same school btw).She asked if I'm going.I said yes(actually I wasn't but when she told me she was,I said yes).She even told me what dress is she going to wear.Asked me if she should wear make up.The venue of the event is actually near to her house,and my friend's house.I told her before going the event I'm going to go my friend's house for a while.She said,"Isn't your friend's house near mine?Come to mine too".Unfortunately something happen I end up didn't go to either ones house.So then at the event we were both very shy.I don't really have the courage to talk to her directly.I would look at her from a distance.I noticed there was once when I was looking at her,she suddenly looked at me,and then she quickly turn away when she realized I was looking at her.I tried to talk to her,but I was very afraid.Finally,in the end,I did,I said Hi,how are you?She smiled,and then giggle.She didn't say anything.I saw her mouth.Her mouth was open,then close,then again.She wanted to say something,but then she couldn't,then she quickly ran away.Again,I decided to find her again.This time,I noticed one more thing.I was standing patiently waiting for her.I was looking at her the whole time.I know she will pass by me.She was like,look at me for like 1 sec,then turn away,then again,like she was trying to see if I'm still there,while walking slowly towards me.Finally,when she is in front of me,I said Hi,and she didn't say hi to me,but she said "Do you have handphone?".I said yes,and she said,"Okay later give me your number".. Okk then bla bla bla,we took a picture together later.Then the event was over.We both went back,open our Facebook,and started chatting.And she said,"why you never come close to me just now?".. I didn't know what to reply.So then everything looks good.On that weekend,she asked me out.At first I said I think I can't make it but then she was like "T.T why?".Anyway I did make it in the end.We went for the movies.I was very quiet because I didn't know her friends that much.I was shy.Then as time goes by,we would gossip about other people,this and that,normal chatting.Even once when we both we're in the same tuition,she messaged me,I looked at her,she saw me looking then she quickly sat down and look down.I realize sometimes she would look at me when I'm not looking at her.Then once we both stared at each other for like 5 seconds from a distance.We both didn't react or smile.Suddenly she just quickly turn her eye up and was like "what did I just do?"... Then as time goes by,she gives me cute name.She spammed my wall.She would suddenly tell me(twice) I owe her lunch,she called me out,she call me cute.There was once I was talking about a girl,and she asked "is it me?",and I quickly change the topic.I feel like the time isn't right.Even there is once I had a Facebook status "Why is it so hard to find my answer?",but I typed the status inversely,like "Yhw si ti os drah....."... Later,she posted a new status "Many things I wanna tell you,but I chose to be silent,i know im pathetic".. the interesting part is she put wrote in inversely too... One day,her mom passed away .Well before this she did tell me about her mom's illnes.She was still close with me.Then one day,one day I screwed up everything.I asked my friend to tell her my feelings.I didn't want to confess through him,I just wanted to know if she likes me too or not.She told my friend this "What?He likes me?I didn't know that.Once I did though if he did,but then I told myself it is impossible.I only like him as a friend.Just like tell him don't think so much?"... From that day onwards,we both began to drift apart.She started to avoid and ignore me.I didn't know what to do.I tried to get closer to her again,but she avoids me.Then I though "I must move on"... For 3months we didn't contact each other at all.We won't say hi anymore.Not even liking Facebook status.Then came one day,I was playing a game on iPhone.When I started playing,she wasn't playing.5 days later she joined,and she sent me an invitation for a match.I was very eager to move on then,I rejected her invitation.Then for once after 3months she commented on my Facebook,but I didn't reply her.Then 1 week later,I realized 1 thing.Even though after 3months we were strangers suddenly,I still think of her everyday.When I see her name my heart would feel excited.But then I know everything was too late then.I secretly discovered her blog too.IN her blog,it was all about her past/ex.I think her ex was during 2010,but she can never let go of him.She still hopes for him to come back.She still wants him to hug her(according to her post).It is like she still dwell in her past.Then I think one day she saw my blog(I put it on public btw).. On my blog,I wrote everything in my heart and mind.I said I was heartbroken,I love someone that love someone else.I mentioned that we were suppose to go for movie,but then when something happen(the friend chat thing),we were strangers suddenly.She was like "I didn't say anything".I mentioned how much I miss her,how much I still love her,and basically everything.Then I think she saw my blog,she didn't tell me anything.She just put a Facebook status "Sorry for everything,thank you for your sincere love :)"... and then she deleted the status few minutes later.I feel blank,empty.I don't know how to react.As for now,I want to move on,I want to forget her,but somehow I still think of her everyday,I still care for her sometimes,that is the reason why I still send you this question.It is like,if I can forget her,I will do it.But if I can be with her,I take it as well.I don't know what to do now.I'm in a dilemma.Sometimes I just wonder and I cried"What have I done to you that we have to become strangers suddenly?I didn't actually confessed to you"
*On her blog,she mentioned she did fell in love with a guy,but she chose to step away.She said that she has promised to her mom she would be a good girl*
What should I do now?I really want to forget her,but I really want to be with her as well.I can't decide.,.
I'll write out everything
I have a huge crush on this girl since last year June.We are both 17yo.I started by slowly chatting with her on Facebook,then slowly I started saying hi to her in real life.Everything looks OK from the beginning.When I know she started playing this online game,I join it too.From there we both got closer.Then there was the 1 week holiday.We would play this game from morning,until the next morning.We would fight together,chat,and basically do everything together.We got close.Then on the same week there was this some kind of school event(we are not the same school btw).She asked if I'm going.I said yes(actually I wasn't but when she told me she was,I said yes).She even told me what dress is she going to wear.Asked me if she should wear make up.The venue of the event is actually near to her house,and my friend's house.I told her before going the event I'm going to go my friend's house for a while.She said,"Isn't your friend's house near mine?Come to mine too".Unfortunately something happen I end up didn't go to either ones house.So then at the event we were both very shy.I don't really have the courage to talk to her directly.I would look at her from a distance.I noticed there was once when I was looking at her,she suddenly looked at me,and then she quickly turn away when she realized I was looking at her.I tried to talk to her,but I was very afraid.Finally,in the end,I did,I said Hi,how are you?She smiled,and then giggle.She didn't say anything.I saw her mouth.Her mouth was open,then close,then again.She wanted to say something,but then she couldn't,then she quickly ran away.Again,I decided to find her again.This time,I noticed one more thing.I was standing patiently waiting for her.I was looking at her the whole time.I know she will pass by me.She was like,look at me for like 1 sec,then turn away,then again,like she was trying to see if I'm still there,while walking slowly towards me.Finally,when she is in front of me,I said Hi,and she didn't say hi to me,but she said "Do you have handphone?".I said yes,and she said,"Okay later give me your number".. Okk then bla bla bla,we took a picture together later.Then the event was over.We both went back,open our Facebook,and started chatting.And she said,"why you never come close to me just now?".. I didn't know what to reply.So then everything looks good.On that weekend,she asked me out.At first I said I think I can't make it but then she was like "T.T why?".Anyway I did make it in the end.We went for the movies.I was very quiet because I didn't know her friends that much.I was shy.Then as time goes by,we would gossip about other people,this and that,normal chatting.Even once when we both we're in the same tuition,she messaged me,I looked at her,she saw me looking then she quickly sat down and look down.I realize sometimes she would look at me when I'm not looking at her.Then once we both stared at each other for like 5 seconds from a distance.We both didn't react or smile.Suddenly she just quickly turn her eye up and was like "what did I just do?"... Then as time goes by,she gives me cute name.She spammed my wall.She would suddenly tell me(twice) I owe her lunch,she called me out,she call me cute.There was once I was talking about a girl,and she asked "is it me?",and I quickly change the topic.I feel like the time isn't right.Even there is once I had a Facebook status "Why is it so hard to find my answer?",but I typed the status inversely,like "Yhw si ti os drah....."... Later,she posted a new status "Many things I wanna tell you,but I chose to be silent,i know im pathetic".. the interesting part is she put wrote in inversely too... One day,her mom passed away .Well before this she did tell me about her mom's illnes.She was still close with me.Then one day,one day I screwed up everything.I asked my friend to tell her my feelings.I didn't want to confess through him,I just wanted to know if she likes me too or not.She told my friend this "What?He likes me?I didn't know that.Once I did though if he did,but then I told myself it is impossible.I only like him as a friend.Just like tell him don't think so much?"... From that day onwards,we both began to drift apart.She started to avoid and ignore me.I didn't know what to do.I tried to get closer to her again,but she avoids me.Then I though "I must move on"... For 3months we didn't contact each other at all.We won't say hi anymore.Not even liking Facebook status.Then came one day,I was playing a game on iPhone.When I started playing,she wasn't playing.5 days later she joined,and she sent me an invitation for a match.I was very eager to move on then,I rejected her invitation.Then for once after 3months she commented on my Facebook,but I didn't reply her.Then 1 week later,I realized 1 thing.Even though after 3months we were strangers suddenly,I still think of her everyday.When I see her name my heart would feel excited.But then I know everything was too late then.I secretly discovered her blog too.IN her blog,it was all about her past/ex.I think her ex was during 2010,but she can never let go of him.She still hopes for him to come back.She still wants him to hug her(according to her post).It is like she still dwell in her past.Then I think one day she saw my blog(I put it on public btw).. On my blog,I wrote everything in my heart and mind.I said I was heartbroken,I love someone that love someone else.I mentioned that we were suppose to go for movie,but then when something happen(the friend chat thing),we were strangers suddenly.She was like "I didn't say anything".I mentioned how much I miss her,how much I still love her,and basically everything.Then I think she saw my blog,she didn't tell me anything.She just put a Facebook status "Sorry for everything,thank you for your sincere love :)"... and then she deleted the status few minutes later.I feel blank,empty.I don't know how to react.As for now,I want to move on,I want to forget her,but somehow I still think of her everyday,I still care for her sometimes,that is the reason why I still send you this question.It is like,if I can forget her,I will do it.But if I can be with her,I take it as well.I don't know what to do now.I'm in a dilemma.Sometimes I just wonder and I cried"What have I done to you that we have to become strangers suddenly?I didn't actually confessed to you"
*On her blog,she mentioned she did fell in love with a guy,but she chose to step away.She said that she has promised to her mom she would be a good girl*
What should I do now?I really want to forget her,but I really want to be with her as well.I can't decide.,.