I feel so pathetic posting this on here but I seriously need someone to suggest their opinions on this because I really don't know what to do.

I was with my ex boyfriend for 4 years. We were 14 and now were 18. We have known each other since we were 11, spoke nearly every day as really good friends and we were on and off since that age.

He is my first and only love likewise I was his. He broke up with me three months ago... There was nothing wrong with our relationship except for the fact that I didn't like his friends as much he'd never invite me out with them... He kept wanting to go out with girls etc towards the end of the relationship. Out of the blue he just said he loves me but not as much as he should and not as much as I love him and he couldn't do it anymore. I asked for more reasons and he told me it was because he needs to experience everything else in life basically... Which I said I understand and would let him go but we would still be good friends.

After this we talked for a few days simple how's you? Etc then I begged for a day! It probably made it even worse. A week after, I found out he was already seeing someone else. Aparently was texting her for a month or two before we split up. I was so angry at this! I then decided to try and move on and went out with someone else and I am still seeing him now, when my ex found out he messaged me saying how sorry he was for being so cruel to me saying he did love me I deserve the best and he couldn't be that and we weren't meant for each other so the sooner it ended the better. I ended up ignoring this message then I bumped into his mum when I was out and she hugged me started crying saying she misses me and loves me and can't believe him at all. She told me to treat it as a break an this confused me as to why she said this?

I then thought I needed to speak to him so I text an confessed I still love him dearly but I will move on for both our sakes an I don't care what he does as long as he is happy. I got no reply but a few days later I rang him by accident an he text me asking if I was supposed to ring so then we had a conversation and I asked to meet up for a chat and he was all flirty with me asking if I wanted to share his food. He kept looking at me in the eyes and wouldn't leave whenever I told him it was time to go now he just stayed. All we done was laugh at each other and make jokes!

He said however that we would never be back together. I haven't spoke or heard from him since and I heard he is not with this girl anymore but he has been seeing others too. I know that the girl he was with was a rebound because a friend told me all he spoke about to her was me they argued over me constantly an they only lasted a few weeks.

It feels like he doesn't care about me in any way! To have not spoken to me or anything I don't understand him an I don't think he'll ever speak to me again now.. Just have this feeling. I shouldn't want him back, I want to move on but I can't just stop loving the person I knew him to be and I feel so guilty moving on because I know he needs to see other people and experience being 18! But me and him had such a connection if we were older we would have lasted. There was no other reason for us to end except for the fact were both young. It feels like he's going through a phase. I hope he comes back eventually but I don't know if he ever will?

I don't know what to do, everyone tells me to give up, but I'm still upset, and I still can't give up on what we had.

He said he is gone for good and exploring his world. Sucks, but he did let go a long time ago, and should should you know. He had the advantage of being ready to leave the relationship, YOU did not.

What you should do is stop keeping hope alive by getting news about him, and have no contact whatsoever with him, so as not to keep old feelings alive, and intense. When you get dumped, for whatever reason, you disappear, regroup, rethink, and start doing your own thing, with family, friends, and activities that you enjoy. In this way you can allow time to heal, and recover from your shock, and disappointment, and that may take some time before you can fully understand what you have gone through, given your ages, and length of time in each others lives.

I highly recommend you stay out of a relationship until you do recover, or you risk rebounding, as he did, and becoming dependent, sad, and insecure. Not fair making some one an emotional crutch, or tampon for your hurts, while you heal, and trying to replace the hole in your soul only makes things worse, NOT BETTER. Time makes things better, and the busier you are for yourself, the better it will get.

Sorry for your loss, but it will get better as you FINALLY let go!

He was seeing other girls, going out with his friends and not you, why do you want someone who is a real loser, sorry to be blunt, but you got "used" to a relationship and perhaps he trained you not to expect better. But what you described is not a healthy dating relationship.

If you can not let go, you need to get professional counseling to help you move on.

To start,
Break contact, don't look at his face book page, unfriend him, don't text or talk to him, and just move on with other activities in your life.