Harkadenn
Apr 11, 2012, 10:42 AM
Here is the story:
I was in a strong relationship for about 6 years, strong and secure except her family issues.
2 days before she dumped me and said to respect her decision. We where planning our wedding and speaking about how to find a ring and all that, she grabbed and hugged a pillow which represented me her hugging me and was telling me never go away. I did the same.
Then it happened (not the first time) but not because lack of love, more because she was tired of getting so hurt she was afraid that it was going to keep happening. She was getting hurt or we where getting hurt because it was a long distance relationship and all we wanted was to find a way to be together independently. She constantly kept telling me to give more than I could do at the moment and she got tired of no progress on my part, yet I was starting to make progress (not good enough by her). Then a little argument where I told her that she was giving me excuses such as not coming to my house because she had a wedding to attend to accompany her sister because her husband was sick and her children couldn't go because the wedding didn't accepted infants...
She told me we have to stop hurting each other like this, my anger turned up and I told her... it shouldn't be this hard, we are going against nature forces, "this isn't working out".
That triggered it, so she dumped me telling me to respect her decision.
Two days after that, I bought the ring and tried traveling a few hours to her house. She wasn't there
:( so I had no other choice but to talk to her mother and showed her the ring and everything (she didn't wanted us to stay together). So it was a huge mistake.
Anyway, after I left I tried texting her and calling her so we can meet. After begging so much she finally answered and called. She was in total denial and even said no to the ring proposal she didn't let me see her one last time (because it happened before and we got back together) we loved each other that much.
She was crying and hurt but was in denial. She also told me that what I said only helped her place things in perspective hence her last decision. I told her you must be struggling so hard I know you still love me do you? And she said, of course I do. She even mentioned to hug for a last time but then she changed her mind and while I kept begging the denial got stronger.
She told me to promise her I will return to my house.
She even texted my brother and friends so nothing happens to me while driving back.
She loves me as much as I love her.
I understand she was in denial but her emotions and logic blocked out every possibility to return together.
I only wish and would do anything so we can get back together, I don't know how to hold on any longer. I'm currently depressed and everyday I wake up everything returns like an old nightmare and I become bitter and sad. I really feel like doing nothing at all.
It hurts so much that two days before all this she told me never go away from her life and we where happy to see each other and get married and all that.
Oh and my birthday was about 4 days ago before all this.
I only wish and hope she will return after some time... I'm sure we can make this work out
I do have hope and Faith that we will get back together, because we are meant to be together.
So... she felt overwhelmed and made a mistake in my opinion. We where that close to start a life and I was starting to have progress then one she wanted to see for so long.
It's been almost a week since my last message, I'm trying really hard with the NO CONTACT strategy and just hope she will return. Why wouldn't she..
I'm very tempted to send her a short text message.
Forgot to mention there's a small problem... she is a professional clinical psychologist.
I was in a strong relationship for about 6 years, strong and secure except her family issues.
2 days before she dumped me and said to respect her decision. We where planning our wedding and speaking about how to find a ring and all that, she grabbed and hugged a pillow which represented me her hugging me and was telling me never go away. I did the same.
Then it happened (not the first time) but not because lack of love, more because she was tired of getting so hurt she was afraid that it was going to keep happening. She was getting hurt or we where getting hurt because it was a long distance relationship and all we wanted was to find a way to be together independently. She constantly kept telling me to give more than I could do at the moment and she got tired of no progress on my part, yet I was starting to make progress (not good enough by her). Then a little argument where I told her that she was giving me excuses such as not coming to my house because she had a wedding to attend to accompany her sister because her husband was sick and her children couldn't go because the wedding didn't accepted infants...
She told me we have to stop hurting each other like this, my anger turned up and I told her... it shouldn't be this hard, we are going against nature forces, "this isn't working out".
That triggered it, so she dumped me telling me to respect her decision.
Two days after that, I bought the ring and tried traveling a few hours to her house. She wasn't there
:( so I had no other choice but to talk to her mother and showed her the ring and everything (she didn't wanted us to stay together). So it was a huge mistake.
Anyway, after I left I tried texting her and calling her so we can meet. After begging so much she finally answered and called. She was in total denial and even said no to the ring proposal she didn't let me see her one last time (because it happened before and we got back together) we loved each other that much.
She was crying and hurt but was in denial. She also told me that what I said only helped her place things in perspective hence her last decision. I told her you must be struggling so hard I know you still love me do you? And she said, of course I do. She even mentioned to hug for a last time but then she changed her mind and while I kept begging the denial got stronger.
She told me to promise her I will return to my house.
She even texted my brother and friends so nothing happens to me while driving back.
She loves me as much as I love her.
I understand she was in denial but her emotions and logic blocked out every possibility to return together.
I only wish and would do anything so we can get back together, I don't know how to hold on any longer. I'm currently depressed and everyday I wake up everything returns like an old nightmare and I become bitter and sad. I really feel like doing nothing at all.
It hurts so much that two days before all this she told me never go away from her life and we where happy to see each other and get married and all that.
Oh and my birthday was about 4 days ago before all this.
I only wish and hope she will return after some time... I'm sure we can make this work out
I do have hope and Faith that we will get back together, because we are meant to be together.
So... she felt overwhelmed and made a mistake in my opinion. We where that close to start a life and I was starting to have progress then one she wanted to see for so long.
It's been almost a week since my last message, I'm trying really hard with the NO CONTACT strategy and just hope she will return. Why wouldn't she..
I'm very tempted to send her a short text message.
Forgot to mention there's a small problem... she is a professional clinical psychologist.