My testosterone was almost non-existent. I'm on hormone replacement therapy. I am a grown man, one of Jehovah's witnesses, and I try to live my life by Bible standards. The stupidest things fill me with rage and I scream at the people I love. When that happens, I hate myself and wish I wasn't here. I should be better than that. Can you forgive me?

Why do we, total strangers, need to forgive you?
Ask the people close to you.
You don't say if the anger started after the testosterone treatments or if it was always there. I'm sure you know they are related, and you should talk to the endocrinologist. If it wasn't prescribed by one, demand a referral to one.