thatonething
Jan 3, 2012, 02:43 PM
Hi to the people who are reading. (wave)
So I'm 13 years of age, and I feel depessed.
I once cut myself, on the head. Well I scratched myself till I started bleeding.
Nothing suicidal.
And I'm a muslim.
When I was in year 6, I was a popular person, I was best friends with the most popular person in the school. Which eventually made me popular by time. I loved primary school, I never felt left out.
Until high school.
When I started high school I wore a headscarf. People just left me out. My class has white/black/mixed-raced/browns. So it was mixed. But I was the only one who wore a headscarf. I had one friend and we used to go to the library everyday. Until one march.
I bonded well with this girl called ashliegh.
She had a lot of friends.
We became the best of friends.
Then one day I took my head scarf off in school.
And it felt great.
I was free.
But the worst thing about this situation was that I was lying to my parents and family.
I've been tellingmy mum 'oh I'm going to wear a hat to school' and she'll just look at me and say no.
My mums a lovely person, but she can get angry over little things.
One day I wore my hat and my dad took me to school. (I took my headscarf in my bag just in case)
I don't know but my dad never questioned me wearing it. (the hat)
I REALLY don't want to wear a headscarf.
I spoke to my sister, I never told her that I take my headscarf off. But I said I don't want to wear it anymore.
She thinks the reason why I don't want to wear it is because people say stuff about me, which is true back then.
But she said to deal with it and ignore it.
I know for a fact, and so does my sister that my parents will get angry if I say I don't want to wear my headscarf.
No-one understands.
I just need advise on what to do.
Thank you for reading
Jasmine.
So I'm 13 years of age, and I feel depessed.
I once cut myself, on the head. Well I scratched myself till I started bleeding.
Nothing suicidal.
And I'm a muslim.
When I was in year 6, I was a popular person, I was best friends with the most popular person in the school. Which eventually made me popular by time. I loved primary school, I never felt left out.
Until high school.
When I started high school I wore a headscarf. People just left me out. My class has white/black/mixed-raced/browns. So it was mixed. But I was the only one who wore a headscarf. I had one friend and we used to go to the library everyday. Until one march.
I bonded well with this girl called ashliegh.
She had a lot of friends.
We became the best of friends.
Then one day I took my head scarf off in school.
And it felt great.
I was free.
But the worst thing about this situation was that I was lying to my parents and family.
I've been tellingmy mum 'oh I'm going to wear a hat to school' and she'll just look at me and say no.
My mums a lovely person, but she can get angry over little things.
One day I wore my hat and my dad took me to school. (I took my headscarf in my bag just in case)
I don't know but my dad never questioned me wearing it. (the hat)
I REALLY don't want to wear a headscarf.
I spoke to my sister, I never told her that I take my headscarf off. But I said I don't want to wear it anymore.
She thinks the reason why I don't want to wear it is because people say stuff about me, which is true back then.
But she said to deal with it and ignore it.
I know for a fact, and so does my sister that my parents will get angry if I say I don't want to wear my headscarf.
No-one understands.
I just need advise on what to do.
Thank you for reading
Jasmine.