I've been with my GF for 2 1/2 years. She has cheated on me about a year and a half ago and has never owned up to it completely. Just bit's and pieces. I don't trust a word she says when it comes to people she sees or hangs out with, I can't stand being around her children, they are very needy and annoying. My own kid won't give her or her kid's any chance to hang out with her and that causes a lot of stress over the matter.

And for the past 2 1/2 years I've broken up with her at least 50 different times because I feel the whole situation is not what I want and I don't respect her. The relationship is taking a huge toll on my own happiness that I'm depressed a lot. So I break up with her. But after all that being said... I miss her. And tell myself I love her, the way she laughs, the good times me and her have together, the sex, her smile. And I find myself getting real down on myself and immediately going back to her.

I stay strong for a week or two but she contact's me and bashes me verbally and makes me feel bad for not wanting her and tells me I will end up alone wishing she was there. Then I bash back and we say sorry. She says she loves me, I believe her, but I also don't forgive or trust her. And I just don't know what to do.

Harshness Warning

You are a fool for love, and to foolish to be in a healthy relationship, especially one that YOU HATE your partner. You are stuck, like a junkie on dope.

Get help really, you need a relationship rehab, and it starts with NO MORE CONTACT. Find a good counselor.

It hurt's so much letting her go and knowing she will replace me with someoneelse so very quickly

Well the there are a few very important things in a relationship in my opinion and they are love trust honesty respect and sex your lacking two of those 5 if you can't trust her and you don't respect each other its not going to work unless you can sit down and call her out on cheating and discuss it of course it would be better if she came out and told you but that obviously isn't getting anywhere so my opinion is sit her down call her out and talk about it if things go well and she admits to it then try talking it out make sure she knows its going to be a while before you can trust her again and if she doesn't admit to it then its not worth your time but make sure if she does admit to it and you both agree to work on it make sureyou really want to be with her not just be with her because you want to be in a realationship because you don't want to be unhappy for the rest of your life