FreedomeFolly
Dec 14, 2011, 04:49 PM
Wow, I hate myself for being on here to have to ask this... but I need so much help right now...
10 Months ago I broke up with the love of my life for A lot of REALLY good reasons. And told myself if he changed WITHOUT me around, then who knows, I loved the kid we were engaged for almost a year, together for two, went through everything, we were so in love it was gross, but he made some terrible choices and I needed to leave because of them.
Well two months ago, I started dating this really sweet guy, who I really really care about... It wasent the same, he cheated on me within the first two week of us being together, we talked it out and I felt it was best to stay, well now I'm in the this lovely little spot of this new guy, is very sweet, romantic, but is now a smoker, dipper and a little to excited when it comes a beer... AND my Old finace DID change his ENTIRE life around and wants me back... and I hate myself because I still really love him... But... my family still hates him because of everything as well as other stuff, this kid I'm with loves me, wants to marry me, I'm just confused and angry with myself for still loving the Old "Him" when I should be happily with new "Him" but when I'm with
New Him" I'm thinking about "Old Him" and when I think about "Old Him" I want to kick myself with guilt for not thinking about the person I'm with....as well as the fact that during his screw ups "Old Him" REALLY Hurt me and no one thinks I should give him a shot... "New him" wants to buy me and engagement ring and propose... Oh yea HAHAHAHA... I'm only 18 and they are both 19... so yes we are WAY to young to have these issues but haha. This is life eh? HELP!
10 Months ago I broke up with the love of my life for A lot of REALLY good reasons. And told myself if he changed WITHOUT me around, then who knows, I loved the kid we were engaged for almost a year, together for two, went through everything, we were so in love it was gross, but he made some terrible choices and I needed to leave because of them.
Well two months ago, I started dating this really sweet guy, who I really really care about... It wasent the same, he cheated on me within the first two week of us being together, we talked it out and I felt it was best to stay, well now I'm in the this lovely little spot of this new guy, is very sweet, romantic, but is now a smoker, dipper and a little to excited when it comes a beer... AND my Old finace DID change his ENTIRE life around and wants me back... and I hate myself because I still really love him... But... my family still hates him because of everything as well as other stuff, this kid I'm with loves me, wants to marry me, I'm just confused and angry with myself for still loving the Old "Him" when I should be happily with new "Him" but when I'm with
New Him" I'm thinking about "Old Him" and when I think about "Old Him" I want to kick myself with guilt for not thinking about the person I'm with....as well as the fact that during his screw ups "Old Him" REALLY Hurt me and no one thinks I should give him a shot... "New him" wants to buy me and engagement ring and propose... Oh yea HAHAHAHA... I'm only 18 and they are both 19... so yes we are WAY to young to have these issues but haha. This is life eh? HELP!