When I was 9years my uncle abused me sexually and last year the whole year did the samething that he had done but for last year was different he will point the knife to me and said I must choose between the two. Only to find out that the thing he was doing make me feels like I was just a fool, sleeping with a man without an agreement.
The only thing that makes me angry os that I'm gay and if he only find out he will say we must continue and I hate him if He can try anything to me I can kill him.
What can I do to control my anger? Please I'm confused because I don't have anyone I can share anything with yet... pleasee.

Why didn't you call the police?

Tell your parents, report it to the police, being gay has nothing to do with it at all.

He said if I can tell anyone something will happen to me I'm afraid to take that decision and I though about it before...

Why are you scared, he only has the control you allow, once this is public, his control of this goes away.

And how old are you now ? Honestly I would tell him something is going to happen to him if he did it again.

Yeah I can see it is really true because I'm no longer near him now.

Phone the police, talk to a family member close to you first, it'll be hard but you've just got to do it, you'll feel better, you won't be blames and it's understandable you didn't get help, I was raped a few years back by my brothers best mate :/ I didn't tell anyone, but please do get help :)