lukeyuriwren
Sep 1, 2011, 04:19 PM
I am a bi sexual 16 year old male by the way. Well about 2 years ago I met this boy, I mean he was just average, but to me he was everything. At the time he wasn't popular, we just so happened to meet in the streets when I was with my friend and it turns out they're practically brother and sister (family friend wise).
So I started to see him more and more frequently and we became close. It started with sleep overs, till it got to a point where I slept over every week. We became totally obsessed with each other we were together nearly every day. So in the sleep overs I slept in his red (because he didn't have anything like an air bed). So gradually it got to a point where he'd sleep with his arm over me, it felt nice, close, it was comfortable and felt right. We would lay in bed hours talking, and hugging.
He told me he was straight and that if he had to go out with a boy he would go out with me, (this knocked my hopes a bit) but I slept over for a New Years party and when the new year came in he leaned me against the wall and started to kiss me (full frontal). He said that he loved me, and even though I thought he was straight (he still says he is) he would try to get into my pants ( I wasn't ready for that though so I pulled away his hand with a "sorry". He'd always tell me its okay because he said just the hugging and kissing was enough (even so we never put a label on our relationship), but he started to become popular, and slowly I was pushed out till one day I was over his house, and I was feeling pretty bad cause he just kept speaking to his friend and didn't speak too much to me.
So I started to cry and just walked out on him... This is the last time I was ever over his house. Sometimes I'll pass him in the street or school and he'll say hi and ask how I'm doing .
I am still so madly in love with him and I want him back more than anything. Its got to a point where I have dreams of the time of how we used to be or us meeting up n being all playful with me like he used to. Like asking to get off in the middle of town. Or saying something come let's have a quick in the toilet like he used to say knowing is decline. Or a dream of that new years eve. I miss him so badly and want him back. I go to call for him, and sometimes he's not in, and others, I dare not go to the door.
Do you still think I have a chance with him even after 2 years of not being like that?
By the way sorry for the few spelling mistakes I posted this on my phone and my keyboard isn't very accurate :)
Edited/T
So I started to see him more and more frequently and we became close. It started with sleep overs, till it got to a point where I slept over every week. We became totally obsessed with each other we were together nearly every day. So in the sleep overs I slept in his red (because he didn't have anything like an air bed). So gradually it got to a point where he'd sleep with his arm over me, it felt nice, close, it was comfortable and felt right. We would lay in bed hours talking, and hugging.
He told me he was straight and that if he had to go out with a boy he would go out with me, (this knocked my hopes a bit) but I slept over for a New Years party and when the new year came in he leaned me against the wall and started to kiss me (full frontal). He said that he loved me, and even though I thought he was straight (he still says he is) he would try to get into my pants ( I wasn't ready for that though so I pulled away his hand with a "sorry". He'd always tell me its okay because he said just the hugging and kissing was enough (even so we never put a label on our relationship), but he started to become popular, and slowly I was pushed out till one day I was over his house, and I was feeling pretty bad cause he just kept speaking to his friend and didn't speak too much to me.
So I started to cry and just walked out on him... This is the last time I was ever over his house. Sometimes I'll pass him in the street or school and he'll say hi and ask how I'm doing .
I am still so madly in love with him and I want him back more than anything. Its got to a point where I have dreams of the time of how we used to be or us meeting up n being all playful with me like he used to. Like asking to get off in the middle of town. Or saying something come let's have a quick in the toilet like he used to say knowing is decline. Or a dream of that new years eve. I miss him so badly and want him back. I go to call for him, and sometimes he's not in, and others, I dare not go to the door.
Do you still think I have a chance with him even after 2 years of not being like that?
By the way sorry for the few spelling mistakes I posted this on my phone and my keyboard isn't very accurate :)
Edited/T