I know I should move on. But, I can't. I love her and the kids so much, it makes me crazy. Her oldest hates me, and the youngest adores me. The middle boy is back and forth. At times I wish we had never gotten together. Other times, I am grateful for the best 4 years of my life. I can't sleep, when I do sleep, I dream of her. She is so deep in my heart, I can't even imagine how to deal with this. I have no idea how to live without her. I'm trying not to be a wus, but I don't think I can do this anymore. I think about her 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. I am making a lot of mistakes at work because of this. If I new I was going to die tomorrow, the alarm would go off early. Feels like the only thing left. Please help.

I have no idea how to live without her.
Ya you do, you lived without her before you met her just fine.

Is this a fresh break up? Sounds like it. In time things will get better, and you have to struggle through until they do.

Takes time to break old ties and attachments. Especially after building them for years. You will.

I canunderstand dear... I am passing through the same phase,. but I think its challenge for us to live without her,, don't do anything wrong with you... try to come out as soon as possible... try to be around friends and people.. avoid lonliness as of now.. gradually you will find some better option...
I am doing it.. it is very difficult for me also.but I have started...
Hope you can understand my feelings..

"At times I wish we had never gotten together"

That's the ticket!!

Keep those thoughts up.

I take that back. Don't think about her at all.
Just you & your next move.

You will make it, just give it time. I went through this and never thought I would live. Every day was pain. I had a real good friend that let me just dump on her and talk about it any time I wanted to and that helped me out quite a bit. Finding someone to talk to will help you but just stay strong. It seems impossible now but keep going and you will get there.

Take care.