My boyfriend died 3 weeks ago of an overdose. We went to sleep in eachothers arms and I woke up still in his arms. I realized when he wouldn't wake up and I felt nothing with my head on his chest that he was not breathing. I tried CPR, I tried everything I could think of while I waited for the ambulence to come. When they came they told me they found pills in his pocket and that he had been gone for a few hours. I knew he had his issues we lived together for 4 years and he always had the issue, I sent him to rehab so many times and he was leaving again the next day. I know his mom gave him those pills she was always his enabler, and I despise her for it, especially because she gets everything of his that was mine or ours because I'm not his wife. I'm angry, I cry randomly, I have not been able to sleep without waking up from dreaming of him, I have thrown myself into my work, and I cannot stop having dreams. I do not know what to do, can anyone give me a suggestion?

Sorry for your loss. Please consult a professional without any delays. It will really help you.

You need bereavement counseling,make an appointment asap.

I'm very sorry for your loss-please get the help you need.

Many areas have loss and grief support groups that meet. A professional to help you deal with your loss.

And if you have things that was "yours" an attorney to help you retain your property.

My boyfriend died of an accidental overdose the day before you posted this. I woke up in his arms as well. If you want to talk privately it would help me a lot. We both lost our loves so close together in such similar ways. Let me know! Thanks

Charmaine