bonzi21
Jun 11, 2011, 07:20 AM
I fell in love with this guy when we were high school. We were close friends for 3 years. After our graduation, we have only seen(accidentally) each other twice. And after that the only communication I have with him is once or twice a year online chat or text message. And now after 15 years, I am still not over him and I still love him. I knew that I am making a stupid mistake by waiting for someone who has no clue.:( I tried to forget him, but every time I start to like another guy, I would get dreams about him and I would think it is a "sign" that I should wait for him. I was doing fine with this illusion I have created in my mind, but then a few weeks ago, we caught each other online and he dropped the bomb and told me he is getting married and asked me if I am able to come home and attend his wedding. :(. Reality hit me hard. I have just migrated to a new country but after his announcement, I have suddenly lost all the "moving-to-a-new-country-excitement" and I have also lost motivation in all the things I do. I lost interest in making friends or trying out new things. I just feel sad most of the time. I have also started to ask myself what is the purpose of my life. I really do not know what should I do.:confused: