I've been married for six years. I have three sons... 14, 11, and 3. My middle child's father and I had broken up when she was a baby. I hadn't had much to do with him since. Recently, my ex contacted me. The conversation was pleasant (we never had a bad relationship). I took our son to see him for the first time in years about four months ago... absolutely perfect visit. He was very respectful to me and our child. He did not disrespect me in any way. We conversated for hours (just as we use too; he apologized for ever hurting me and saying that he was proud of me for moving on. I enjoyed being there. I'm in love with his family as well. I returned to my homelife the next day. I had sudden emotional changes. I have always loved this man. He is a wonderful man. I have always felt connected to this man. I feel different emotions when I'm around him. I want to be there; but I feel guilty for having these feelings. My husband of six years is a wonderful man also. He's a hard working man, respectful, loving father (we have a child together as well), caring, funny... etc... picture perfect husband. I am feeling so guilty for having these feelings toward the other; but they are there and I don't know what to do with them.

My husband and I spoke about this recently... I finally broke down, crying, angry at myself. I told him that I am not happy. I told him that I wanted to be near him (the ex). He lives in another state. I do not wish to leave my husband, because I love him; but I do want to spend time with the ex (not in a sexual manner) as well. Ive always felt something is missing from my life and I believe it's the ex. My husband suggested that I move where I am happy. I am scared to make this leap. I'm scared that when/if I do this, I may not want my husband to join me...

Your husband is willing to uproot your family, quite his job and move to another State so you can be near your ex-boyfriend so you can "conversate" and be friends with him? Amazing.

Has the "ex" supported his child through the years? I find it difficult to believe that a caring, loving, wonderful man would be absent from a child's life and then reappear.

Only you know what will make you happy. I think you have to pick between the two men (whether or not sex is involved at this time) and decide where you want to be. At the moment you are playing your husband, perhaps intentionally, perhaps not.

He deserves a woman who loves him 100%. That woman may not be you.

Yes, My husband suggested the move. He knows that I am not happy here where we currently reside. He knows that I am happy around the ex's family. He said he wants me to be happy. And I do want to be happy. I wouldn't be moving to 'conversate' and be 'friends'. We already do that. I would be moving to bring our child closer to him and his family.

The ex and his family has supported our child through the years--it was me that built the wall and didn't have much to do with the ex; because I know how I feel when I am around him.

Im not playing my husband. I've been upfront about how I feel. My husband is a very good man. I do not want him out of my life. I am seeking answers/advice/opinions. I want what's best for my children and for myself. I want my children to be near their fathers-both of them. I want to be near them. I do not have a sexual relationship nor do I intend to with the ex. I am afraid of my feelings and have guilt for feeling this way... because I do love them both.

Do what your heart tells you