Hi .Im a 29 yr old male from India.I know a friend of mine for 5 yrs.The strange part is ever since I've met him I haven't really felt this way about him ,I mean though he's reasonably average looking though not conventioanlly handsome, for many years have only known him as a colleague.
However of late I've developed intense compassionate feelings for him.I always have carnal thoughts ABOUT HIM.So much so that even when I try patting him as a friend I'm actually trying to touch him,since he has a pretty nice body.I even try groping him near his butt,and he doesn't notice it at all.Everytime I look at his face and notice the cleft on his chin ,I get thus urge of kissing him on his cleft chin.I love embracing him .Its kind of funny because when I started to know him I didn't really feel that way .Im bisexual but can be pretty straight for most part.However off late Hes the only thing that stays on my mind.I might get engaed to a girl or so few years from now.
I don't know if this is because of my loneliness ,I've developed such weird behavior.I feel like crying my heart out to him.I feel like kissing him ,holding him ,every moment of my life.if there's anything I could do to get his love, I would leave no stone unturned.Theres been a long time Since Ive been waiting to talk to him about my feelings for him.But I fear I might lose his friendship forever and he just might banish me,outright ridicule my advances.
Every time Hes in front of me , I feel like I almost can't breathe,gasping.

Well, for starters I'd stop "groping his butt."

You have two choices - tell him or don't.

In the meantime I think you are obsessing, for whatever reason, over this person.

You have an unhealthy obsession going on. You need to tell your friend that you have feelings for him, or back off from the "touching and groping". Personally, if you do not feel like telling him about your feelings, my advice is to get yourself as far away from him as possible (at least for a while).

Obsessions will lead you down a very depressing road, it's OK to like the guy, but not think about him 24/7.

First of all does he know you're BISEXUAL? Cus if he does then he clearly would have less surprise if you should tell him of your "obessing" (cus you ARE obsessing over this... ). If he doesn't know and just feels like the two of you are having fun in those "groping sessions he's going to HIT THE ROOF if you tell him!

Being bisexual can be complicated for the people around you cus they don't understand it. Bisexuality is the MOST MISUNDERSTOOD sexualities out there...

The bottom line is how forthcoming have you been with him? If he's aware of your sexuality he will be able to digest your fantasies about him without wanting to punch your lights out...if you haven't then you're scr*wed!

There has to be a point of time in your life where you can be real...honest. If that's not possible and bisexuality has to remain a secret then you NEED to disengage with this guy and WALK AWAY..fast. Understand that he's not a little toy for you to play with. He's a MAN and with that comes an array of macho-ism, ego, etc...as well as all the good stuff that comes with being a man. You could be playing with fire!

You might have to make new friends if you have kept the ones you have in the dark.

Judykaytee dropped the word, "Obsession". She's right you know...

Then I guess I'll have to forget him