happy_daze
Apr 18, 2011, 09:51 PM
I'm 19, I'm happy whenever I'm with my boyfriend but its like the second we leave each other I'm miserable and depressed and lonely again. I live with my sister and her family but I stay in my room most of the day just too depressed and emotionally exhauseted to get up. I don't have many friends because I don't have the energy to get up and do things with them but as soon as my boyfriend suggests we hang out I'm right on it. I do believe I'm bipolar I believe I have a bad case of anxeity disorder. I have a small part time job trying to save money for a ticket I have 500 bucks but I'm addicted to spending every penny I have its hard to save which means I can't drive until I pay it. I feel like everyday I'm getting worse and worse. I hate not seeing my boyfriend I'm not happy where I live I'm not happy not driving or that I don't get enough hours at work. I don't know what to do I feel so hopeless and helpless that I feel ending my life would be so much better. I know the future will be better but I'm not all right with spending my current days so hurt. Advice?