I don't understand. Its as though I want to be but I don't and I have now started clawing at my arm.. Yet I'm a happy person.

Chew away and you will have nothing left. Anorexic, well you have gone beyond that...

I don't know what to do.. The other day I had an overdose on painkillers.. And I tried bulimia which worked today but I scratched my throat because my gag reflexes are impossible.

I'm not trying to be mean by saying this, just honest, you need professional help. Eating disorders and body image issues are serious illnesses and should not be taken lightly. Talk with your doctor. Start seeing a nutritionist and a dr that specializes in this sort of thing, probably a therapist. The overdose on painkillers, fascination with anorexia, and purging are all red flags that you need help, sooner than later is better. I would call the doctor today to talk.

How old are you? You sound out of touch with yourself and your actions, not saying that in a mean way but with concern. What painkillers, and where are you getting them?

I dont know what to do.. The other day I had an overdose on painkillers .. And I tried bulimia which worked today but I scratched my throat because my gag reflexes are impossible.

Go to someone personal and try and get a reaction out of them. You will only get good advice here, which you don't appear to want, or professional help for that matter. It is really sad when a person comes here and wants advice on cutting themselves, eating to puke and not eating at all; and of course, biting themselves and cutting. You are really a sad person, so get over it and get into the normal world where you belong.

I don't have any patience with women like you. We all have our crosses to bear and go through a lot of soul searching to get over it. You haven't been anywhere I haven't been but have never resorted to self mutiliation or sticking a finger down my throat to throw up what a eaten to prove a point.

Get over whatever you have to get over and move on with your life to become the person you should be. You are no good the way you are to anyone who loves you, your parents, a b/f or a g/f.

I am done with this post; women like you who can't control their urges, or their life and have a lot to look forward to in a young life have no place on this forum asking questions.

Tick

I've only just turned 15

OK! 15, but you are avoiding other questions, and not helping with ANY information about your lefe. You are just throwing stuff out here: anorexia, bulemia, self mutilation, and overdosing. Nothing. I asked where you are getting painkillers - nothing. You are a walking billboard of need, and are offering nothing. Start describing your life and situation. NO ONE is going to drag it out of you, which is what all that behavior is about - wanting attention, look at me. You have a voice and a vocabulary, use them.

Ok, I get the pain killers from home. My mum works in a chemist and I don't want attention. But I know someone who does it for attention and the way she goes about it is awful. And I have now realised that family issues are arising which could be on reason why. I have a close family but lately we have all been arguing a lot. I'm just confused so after the half term that I have off from school I'm going to the youth worker who deals with this stuff...