Well I've known him since high school. We dated, like for a year then, and he moved on to another school and state. We just get back in contact with each other, and we have been doing this off and on for 6 or 7 years. We stopped talking 5 months ago because no matter how he said he cared because he was showing me how much he cared, I always felt suspicious. Now he says he hopes he hears from me after 5 months.. Im currently in a heaven sent relationship and I'm finally learning to trust again.. I don't want to be his friend because he doesn't deserve it. My question is should I email him back or never speak to him again?

You always feel suspicious.

You don't want to be his friend.

He doesn't deserve your friendship.

Why would you email him back?

Hi! Thanks, I guess because he was my first and I let him in too close.. and therefore it still hurts that I'm not with him. But your answer is awesoomee,your right why would I email him, deep down I knew I wasn't going to;)

But your answer is awesoomee
All I did was say your own words back to you so you could read what you had said.

Those "firsts" are killers -- they kill our desire to move forward.