maranello
Dec 7, 2010, 11:02 AM
So, here is the story, after a 5 year relationship off and on (we're both in mid late 40's), with one interruption where she went off with some rich guy to find out that it was not working and came back... which caused me a lot of pain and as I was recovering we got back a year after she had left _ I went for it because I loved her. We then lived together for close to a year after that but the relationship deteriorated in the last 3-4 months while living in the same apartment - she could not afford to go live somewhere else yet. Some days we were barely talking, but the relationship got heated as she was dating people and coming in late at night or not coming back at all treating my apt as a hotel room! Finally she moved out and I find out now 30 days later that she is marrying some guy that they were distant friends with... I know she does not deserve my even thinking about her, and I am trying very hard, but it bothers me a lot that she is getting married so quickly and posting pictures of happiness and bliss at the beach with someone that can afford a lot more than I can _ 2 months at the beach and travelling overseas! I could not afford that and as I was focusing on my work, I could take care of all our essential needs and a few vacations (yes to europe) ! I think that I truly loved this woman a lot, but not as much the last 3 months _ I keep thinking of whether it was all my fault, that I should have done more to keep her, but something inside me says I could not afford this woman though _ financially or emotionally.
Any advice, help? I feel very anxious and depressed, difficutly in moving forward, sort of paralyzed by the whole situation _ I am a very good person and very succesfull in my career, cannot afford to be dragged down like this! Not sure why I am thinking of things that I cannot change.
Any advice, help? I feel very anxious and depressed, difficutly in moving forward, sort of paralyzed by the whole situation _ I am a very good person and very succesfull in my career, cannot afford to be dragged down like this! Not sure why I am thinking of things that I cannot change.