Hey well this is a long story.See I never was looking for a relationship.and finally one day my old schoolmate got to contact me through a mutual friend.Well,apparently she had the biggest crush on me and wanted to get into it right away.She was 18 and I was 19,we both were in our 2nd year of our college(not the same college).I initially said no cause I had a huge amount of responsibilities in life and after.but she always encouraged me and said we could make it work,and that she would be my side no matter what(all this with super emotional tears!).I didn't want the question lingering in my head 'What if' so we got into the relationship.She wanted to get physical pretty quick as well.. I kind of had trouble in the beginning but I eventually agreed of course we never went all the way though she wanted to,we made a pact that if this was going to be a serious relationship we were going to wait until after marriage.
She was very possessive and always got mad at me and went hyper if I spoke to other girls.I happened to have a very close friend and she was having some trouble in her relationship.when I was helping her out with that,my gf(then) had these major tantrums why did you have to be there,she has a boyfriend why do you have to comfort her.Eventually I got used to it and I even reduced talking to my friends causing them to think that I was avoiding.I did that to only try making this relationship work,because apart from this she was a very sweet person,very patient with me.I have a huge temper and I used to get ticked off with small childish things.We argued most of the time but we always made it out easy and apologized quick enough.So it was all going really good.

We were well past our 6th month and I had already broken the news to my parents and they were happy and we had grown through the relationship.I no longer had the temper that I used to and we were very sensible.

Suddenly she began becoming distant with me,it bothered me a lot,I always enquired why and what happened.but she kept saying college troubles or stuff.which I accepted and was always trying to comfort her to be happy and confident.she became worried about her getting a job for which I always encouraged her.but things weren't the same anymore,I thought it was my imagination so I set it aside and tried being the same.

Then one day in our 10th month, she did something stupid and I ended up scolding her pretty bad.all my emotions and worried came out this way and I ended saying things I didn't mean.That started changing things,I called her up later and apologized heavily.She was obviously mad at me and started scolding me,which I took with open arms since it was my fault to lose my temper.I went to her place to make things at peace,since her parents are of the conservative type ,they didn't know about me,I waited outside her house and when she came out I apologized and she was genuinely happy.

But she was still formal with me through texts and that is the only way we used to keep in touch.She started throwing guilt attacks saying that I never treated her well,I was always rude and I would never change and I always apologize.I pleaded saying that I would change all that please be the same as you used to be with me.It went on for 2 whole weeks.
She always was formal and rude to me.

I apologized through about 20 e-cards(I couldn't risk with real ones since her parents were super strict) nothing broke the ice,even though she said she forgave me,she always made it feel like she was talking to me reluctantly.We moved into our 11th month,she and I wanted to start afresh,it went on fine until I read a message to her from her apparent close friend calling her 'baby',I was jealous no matter what the reason I wouldn't like anyone calling my girlfriend that.Besides this caught me off guard,I always portrayed her as this girl who doesn't let guys that close because she hated the fact I had many friends in girls but never have I once used petnames to call them,it was all weird,it was like I never knew who she was at all.I asked her about it and she said that it was nothing and he always called her that way.

I told her that's really disturbing I don't want him calling you that way,she got all hyper and started saying he's just a friend ,why would you make such a big deal out of it,I was only trying to help him get through some rough stuff,I told her this was the same thing I told you when I was trying to help my other friend,why did you disaprove of that.She assumed I was suspecting her of cheating me with him.I tried making her understand.eventually that that died down.All was well for two days when she again became texting me formally.when asked about it,she said she was irritated.

I offered to help,told her let's talk about it,we can talk about it even if its about me,lets sort it out.She said that she still isn't able to forget the times I was rude to her.I told her if this is bothering you so much I think it's best if we break up,I don't want you to be in a relationship when you feel this way,to which she cried a lot and asked me never to leave her and that she was just being silly.I told her that we need to talk and sort everything out before we screw it up entirely.

She was reluctant and the 2hr talk made absolutely no yield whatsoever.she wasn't even attempting and kept arguing most of the time.On the same night,I have the habit of checking her Facebook profile,she was always scared about socialing sites and I kept tab of annoying people and removed them,but she had changed her password.This was serious,she never kept anything from me,and I logged into her mail to check if it was her who had changed the password and I saw the Facebook mail replies from a girl who happened to be our senior from high school.the mails were apparent that she was asking about some guy from her batch.I let it go,I never confronted her about it.the next day the same thing happened and she asked about him to another batchmate.

I know it was wrong prying into her privacy and I never would have done that unless I suspected that someone else had changed her password
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I decided that she no longer was happy with me and she was just scared to break up with me.I broke up with her the next day but she cried a lot and begged me back.I didn't want to hurt her so we got back almost instantly.But this was messing with my head and after a day I asked her and she well started crying again and said that she was so sorry for betraying me and that she could never look at me again.

The guy happened to be someone she liked when she was in 9th grade and apparently she saw him recently and with all the fights happening,she began doing this.She actually told me all this.I asked her to take a break for 2 days ,longer if she wanted to and get her emotions clear for me.Two days later.she said she loved only me and she didn't know why she behaved that way.I told her its in the past lets move on.it eventually was a huge thing to move on for both of us.

I know the amount of pain I went through knowing that she was asking about some old crush she had.it made me sick to my stomach.Things were going slow for a week,we were trying to make things work or at least I was.And then one day after a week she sends text saying she wasn't to break and its her fault and not to worry,I was devastated.

I called her back and all she said was 'let's just stop everything here',I couldn't really do anything.I wasn't able to forget her because I couldn't forget the good times I had with her.I called her up the next day and begged her to get back leaving all myself respect behind.She just ended it saying 'i feel this isn't good now,Not interested anymore'. It's weird because every time we had fights or anything(I mean which relationship didn't) we always worked it out.I don't get why she suddenly stopped making it work.We both wanted a serious relationship and we both wanted to work together for everything.

I still have sleepless nights wondering what went wrong.its been two months since it happenend and I'm still having trouble moving on.Why do you think happened? Where did it go wrong?

Well guy you went wrong when you decided to go along with her program, instead of taking your time seeing what her program was getting you into. Her high school crush wasn't enough for her to go along with what you wanted and you start giving away your dignity and self respect early on, so of course there is no more left. You let her call all the shots, and set the pace, and this is where you ended up!

Like all crushes, high school or otherwise, those feelings faded, and then disappeared, and frankly you did everything wrong from the endless e-cards to the begging to the snooping. You are not sleepless because of her, but your inability to accept you dodged a bullet from a fickle female, and have resorted to self pity as your comfort.

Slap yourself really hard, and get off the pity pot! You would have managed much better if you had bowed out gracefully, and kept your dignity and self respect, but its not to late now to get it back.

Do it, no excuses.

Lets not get into what you did wrong, you sound like a really nice guy and stay that way, what's scary for me is you basically described my whole relationship, except, unfortunetly for me I'm the girl! And I to set my eyes on my boyfriend and made him mine, pretty quickly we fell in love, I was his first real relationship, but I am I very insecure girl and for the first few weeks when I wanted him to myself I loved the chase, as soon as he fell in love with me I got pretty bored, I hate to say it, I was crazy jealous (still am in a way) I couldn't understand why on earth he'd want to be talking to other girls when secretly I was talking to other blokes! Not a lot but he too found out via my Facebook page and I was eating my own words!

When this lady of yours wanted you, she got you! She sounds like she loves men at her feet but she doesn't really get satisfaction from it and I myself had to look twice, three times at myself and realize I was a fool, I had this amazing bloke that was madly in love with me (I still can't come to terms with that)and he wasn't planning on going anywhere, keep in mind I would never ever cheat on him and I know he wouldn't cheat on me and I'm happy to say that its been over a year now and my insecurities have faded a lot! I know this lady has let you down but believe it or not her family and your family are very important for you to be in a serious relationship, his family are my family now and its great, you shouldn't need to sneak around at your age, how great would it be to know your gfs family and vice versa? You could stay at each others houses at weekend etc, I know its not everything but knowing my boyfriends family is everything to me, I love that they accept me and I love that he sees that (even though a lot of his friends hate me) I've got his families approval,

So this girl set her sites on you and spit you back out, you tried your hardest to make it work but you couldn't, but now you know your capable of being serious about someone that deserves it, luckily for me I realized my faults before it was too late, and it almost was too late a few times, but I can honestly say we are at our happiest now, so don't feel at fault about any of this, she sounds immature and incapable at seeing her own faults (at least until, she's older) but we're all heart breakers at some time in our lives and have our hearts broken, but that all part of finding your true love, think of her at a "try out" haha :P hope I helped,