I am 34 years old and still do not know why I am on this planet.I will explain what I mean.
I was in a car accident when I was 18 and almost died. I was also electrocuted in it. This gave me many injuries and put me in hospital for five months. I was bed ridden for three of them so I lost the ability to even bend my legs. I had to relearn how to walk. I was very athletic before accident and had a special someone. Basically I lost the last to things I mentioned which in turn I lost my identity.

Fast forward to present... my left foot still gives me trouble because of electrocution and am in line to get foot fused because of pain from foot drop. I am off work and probably will not be able to go back do to this condition.

This is where the trouble is... I know there are people out there that are worse off them me, but I always ask myself why. Why I did not die? Why did this happen to me? Is there something I am suppose to do? (by this I mean because I did not die)

And my last problem with this s about this girl friend I had at the time of accident. I still think about her. I even emailed her and told her I still love her. Gee-sh I should just be hit on the head... help!

We all have a purpose, that's my belief.

It's not always clear why we're here. It's not always clear when we make a difference either. Just living is enough for most people, being the best they can be, living life to the fullest.

I've had many life changing events. Each of them has led me to where I am now, and where I am now is content.

Life is what you make it. If you spend your days asking why instead of using the gift you were given, then you're wasting that second chance. Maybe your purpose is to live your life to the fullest.

As for the girl friend, that's in the past, that's where you should leave it. There's more then one woman out there, so live your life and find someone to share it with.

You need to let go of the things you think are holding you back. You need to find the strength to go forward.

That's the only advice I can give you. :)

Through the different times where I had tragedies, I wondered this also, answers given,only one.

It wasn't my time to go.

There has to be something you need to accomplish before your time is up.WHAT that might be is up in the air.SO, living instead of just going with the flow of life seems to be a good solution.

These are words given to me.

I struggle with life at times,wondering things, inventing chaos where there is none,just for a change of pace.. sometimes life needs our participation,our effort to be proactive.I was amazed when I took the 'bull by the horns' and went out LOOKING for peace,and I found love in it.I went out looking for self,and found others in my pursuits.I went back into the world without expectations,and found work!

These aren't a 'oh,that's just you' scenario,this happens every day, it's called a change in perspective.

Are you willing to change yours?

You're in a tough situation, that's clear. But there are alternatives.

You might feel like there are two choices in front of you. One is that you rather have died. The other choice is to continue to suffer while being alive?

I can assure you that there are many other options. There's a third, fourth, fifth, etc. path.

If you dwell on your weaknesses, then it's easy to put yourself down and feel helpless. This applies to anyone. Why not focus on your strengths? I can see at least one strength. You've been through a very difficult tragedy, but you've recovered to a certain extend. That shows that you're a strong person. Why not put that strength to good use.

Like you said, there are others who are in a more dire situation than you. Why not be a volunteer to help those who are still recovering from their injuries and give them hope and strength?

You can also help answer questions here by sharing your what you've learned to help others.

That's just an example, the point is, we all have weakness, but we all have strengths too. We just have to discover them and we feel better about yourself by gaining confidence. It's a bonus if we could use your strengths to help others too.

Are you angry at yourself for being in the accident (even if it wasn't your "fault")? Are you angry at yourself for losing your girlfriend?

If so, you have to learn to forgive yourself. Forgiving yourself for the things you had no control over will set you free, emotionally and mentally.

Once you learn to forgive yourself, you can work towards finding what makes you happy right here and right now, in your life at this exact moment and once you find whatever it is that makes you happy, make it a part of your day, every day.

Take it one day at a time. Look at every day as if it's another gift from GOD. The past should be left alone, the future should be ignored, enjoy today because it's a beautiful day (even in the worse of times), that's why today (the right now--at this exact moment) is called the present. =)