Besides the obvious.
What exactly would happen to my body? Mind, organs, etc.

Why do you want to know? We don't give information to assist suicides here, and that what this sounds like.

I just need to know =/

Why? If you refuse to answer, then I'll have to ask a mod to close this thread. We do not do assisted suicides here.

It's not assisting. An answer could talk me out of it.
If I knew how to delete a question (if that is even possible) I'd do it myself.

It's not assisting. An answer could talk me out of it.
If I knew how to delete a question (if that is even possible) I'd do it myself.

So you're contemplating suicide and you want us to help?

Sweetie, we won't do that.

How about telling us what's brought this on? What's going on in your life that you think this is the only option?

How old are you?

As for Darvocet and Vicodin, it would be a very painful, very slow death.

Please don't do this. I've been here and trust me when I tell you, it will gt better, it does get better, just hold on and get to the next day, then the next, then the next.

An appointment with your doctor is a good idea. There are medications to help you feel better until you can handle it on your own.

Counceling is also a good idea.

Depression is for but a moment, death is forever. Think about that.

We're here to listen, so tell us what's going on.

Yup a very slow and painful death, if you actually dies, You could just end up brain damaged. Either way not cool.

Honey, listen. I've been there. Done that. NOT a good idea. What will happen? Pain, excrutiating pain. Then you realize, "O crap, life is over" and you realize that taking your own life is the worst mistake.

Talk to us. We can help. See a counselor, they can help.

Sometimes life feels like it's worthless, like no matter how hard you climb you still grab the slippery rock and fall. Like no matter what you do, you're going to fail, and you don't know what to do. You see suicide as the best way out.

It isn't.

Let in the light sweetheart.

We are here to help

So you're contemplating suicide and you want us to help?

Sweetie, we won't do that.

How about telling us what's brought this on? What's going on in your life that you think this is the only option?

How old are you?

As for Darvocet and Vicodin, it would be a very painful, very slow death.

Please don't do this. I've been here and trust me when I tell you, it will gt better, it does get better, just hold on and get to the next day, then the next, then the next.

An appointment with your doctor is a good idea. There are medications to help you feel better until you can handle it on your own.

Counceling is also a good idea.

Depression is for but a moment, death is forever. Think about that.

We're here to listen, so tell us what's going on.


I know my other posts seemed sort of... cold. I'm not really like that. I'm just so frustrated, I guess. I just don't care about really... anything. I hate society, I hate myself. The only things I can think of to live for are small ridiculous things, like my favorite bands or playing my guitar. I find it strange that I don't care about anything else.

I'm seventeen.

And I've been holding on for about six years now. Nothing's gotten better. If I had some sort of proof that life got better I might not be considering this but not a single day goes by when I don't consider suicide. I just want to know what it feels like to not have to worry about this anymore.

We've all been there to some extent, where it feels like everything is going wrong, that it's easier just to give up. The thing is, the pain of life only lasts a short time, but the pain of death is forever.

I've been where you are too. I thought I'd always feel the way you probably feel right now. I pushed through it, talked to my parents, got the help I needed and today I have a wonderful husband, two beautiful kids, a good life, despite the problems I face I choose life.

I've seen people fight for their lives when death was looming. Both of my parents died of cancer, they fought with everything in them to live. You have that fight in you, you just have to find it or get someone to help you find it.

You're not alone but if you take the step your contemplating, there's no going back. It's not worth it. Truly it isn't.

Live. You have the choice, so many don't. Choose life.

And I bet it feels like nothing will get better right?

You play guitar? That's cool. I never learned. You could use that to get out your frustrations.

Here's your proof okay?

We care. And we want to help you care.

If you don't die, then you'll end up in the hospital for a long time. The first thing they'll do is make you drink charcoal, which I've heard tastes REALLY gross, so that you'll throw up. After that, if you're conscious, you'll be put in a room on suicide watch.

During suicide watch, you'll have someone sitting with you EVERY minute of the day. If you get up to pee, they'll follow you. When they finally let you shower, which will probably take several days before they trust you not to try to drown yourself, then the door will be left open and your sitter will stand or sit in the doorway while you shower. When friends and family come to visit, your sitter will be there listening to everything you're saying. The ONLY time your sitter won't be with you is when you have your mandatory meetings with a therapist.

During your sessions, be sure to expect a lot of personal questions. They'll want to know everything that led up to you taking the pills. They'll ask about your family history. If there's any history of depression or suicide in your family. They'll want to know about your home life, your friends, your family, your pets, and anyone else you're close to. They'll ask about your sleeping patterns, how often you eat, what you eat, how much you eat, if you throw up after you eat.

And you'll be asked those questions by more than one person. The nurse who admits you will ask you questions. A doctor will ask you questions while he examines you. The therapist will ask you questions. They may bring other people in to ask you questions.

If you happen to be admitted at night, which you probably will (most suicide attempts happen in the evening or night), then don't expect to get any sleep that night. There will be people coming in and out of your room all night asking you questions, taking your vitals, drawing blood, having you pee in a cup, and then there is your sitter sitting there all night watching you to make sure you don't try anything.

For the first several days, all your food will look more like baby food than anything else. You'll have to eat everything with a spoon, which will probably be plastic, and if they don't see the spoon when they pick up your tray, they'll search everywhere until they find it. Even when you get more solid food, you'll be lucky if you get a fork (have fun eating a pork chop with a plastic spoon).

It'll be several days before they let you wear anything but a hospital gown. Even once they do, you won't be allowed anything with strings or anything that could be sharpened. Any shoes or hoodies will have the strings removed before you can wear them.

And that's ignoring all the physical side effects of attempting suicide, and everything you'll have to deal with after you get out of the hospital, and how your friends and family will react.

And I bet it feels like nothing will get better right?

You play guitar? that's cool. I never learned. You could use that to get out your frustrations.

here's your proof okay?

We care. and we want to help you care.

Yeah I play when I need to forget about everything. It only helps temporarily, though.

And thanks everyone, for your answers.

Can you do me a favor pretty please?

can you do me a favor pretty please?

I can try.

Start by finding one reason to smile each day. It doesn't matter what the reason is. At the end of the day, take out a journal, and write down why you smiled that day. Keep that journal with you. Whenever you feel down, read that journal.

In the beginning, it may be hard to think of one thing that made you smile. Eventually, though, you'll have so many reasons you smiled that day that you'll have to pick only a few to write down.

I know like it seems like life sucks right now, but honestly things change as you get older. Your priorities and out look on life changes.

If you are thinking about ending it, them maybe it might be helpful to talk to someone about it? I went through a crazy stage when I was around your age. I went to a therapist, and I went through a few before I found one I liked, but it ended up helping a lot. Maybe you need an outlet? Do you like to write, or interested in film making? I made a few films in my earlier 20's, I found it was a good way to cope with a lot of sadness and anger I was still feeling. They were nothing spectacular, but it was a lot of fun doing it. It was hard work and the feeling of self accomplishment was amazing on the self esteem.

I know my other posts seemed sort of... cold. I'm not really like that. I'm just so frustrated, I guess. I just don't care about really... anything. I hate society, I hate myself. The only things I can think of to live for are small ridiculous things, like my favorite bands or playing my guitar. I find it strange that I don't care about anything else.

I'm seventeen.

And I've been holding on for about six years now. Nothing's gotten better. If I had some sort of proof that life got better I might not be considering this but not a single day goes by when I don't consider suicide. I just want to know what it feels like to not have to worry about this anymore.

This isn't unusual. Really it isn't, especially at your age.

Have you told your parents how you feel? Have you talked to your doctor? There is help, not only therapy but medication. It very well could be a chemical imbalance that's making you feel this way. That's what it was for me.

You owe it to yourself, to your loved ones, to seek out every available form of help. Talk to your parents, go to your doctor. Be proactive in finding the solution. There is one, I promise you. Death is not a solution, it is the ultimate slap in the face, not only to you but to the people that love you.

You owe it to yourself to get help. Promise me that you will. Okay?

We're all here to lend an ear, to help you through this, but in the end it's up to you and you alone. You have the power to change this.

I can think of many things in your future to look forward to. I have two of them right now, they're outside playing. I have one of them that I've been with for 20 years, married for 15. There's another one too, just look in the mirror and see what you have to look forward to. You! You may not see it now but I do, we all do. You are on this earth for a reason, whether you believe in God or not, you are here for a purpose. That purpose is not to take your own life. That life is a gift. Use it wisely.

Are you male or female? Is there something that's happened lately that's brought you down?

Raven, look around you, at all the people coming to post here, to help you. You are important. We know it, that's why we're here.

I know like it seems like life sucks right now, but honestly things change as you get older. Your priorities and out look on life changes.

If you are thinking about ending it, them maybe it might be helpful to talk to someone about it? I went through a crazy stage when I was around your age. I went to a therapist, and I went through a few before I found one I liked, but it ended up helping a lot. Maybe you need an outlet? Do you like to write, or interested in film making? I made a few films in my earlier 20's, I found it was a good way to cope with a lot of sadness and anger I was still feeling. They were nothing spectacular, but it was a lot of fun doing it. It was hard work and the feeling of self accomplishment was amazing on the self esteem.

That's really cool that you made films. I've never even though of doing that. I used to write but I sort of lost interest in it =/

This isn't unusual. Really it isn't, especially at your age.

Have you told your parents how you feel? Have you talked to your doctor? There is help, not only therapy but medication. It very well could be a chemical imbalance that's making you feel this way. That's what it was for me.

You owe it to yourself, to your loved ones, to seek out every available form of help. Talk to your parents, go to your doctor. Be proactive in finding the solution. There is one, I promise you. Death is not a solution, it is the ultimate slap in the face, not only to you but to the people that love you.

You owe it to yourself to get help. Promise me that you will. Okay?

We're all here to lend an ear, to help you through this, but in the end it's up to you and you alone. You have the power to change this.

I can think of many things in your future to look forward to. I have two of them right now, they're outside playing. I have one of them that I've been with for 20 years, married for 15. There's another one too, just look in the mirror and see what you have to look forward to. You! You may not see it now but I do, we all do. You are on this earth for a reason, whether you believe in God or not, you are here for a purpose. That purpose is not to take your own life. That life is a gift. Use it wisely.

Are you male or female? Is there something that's happened lately that's brought you down?

I'm female. And I don't really know why all of a sudden I'm feeling like this again. It comes and goes. I guess I'm just realizing that everyone has so much going for them and I'll probably always be stuck where I am. I don't have any interest in pursuing my old dreams of going to college or anything.

That's really cool that you made films. I've never even though of doing that. I used to write but I sort of lost interest in it =/

I used to write a lot.

What sort of things did you write?




If you ever get close to offing yourself, call this number:1-800-SUICIDE
*hug* they also are there to help

Stat doing something about what you don't like. You might be able to start with "Letters to the editor".

We're all friends here, sort of. We listen for free. You should not be afraid of us. Open up. We may be able to help.

What's something that bothers you a little bit and something that bothers you a lot?

YOu know what I used to loive writing. I lost interest in it too. When I would make films, I barely would use scripts. I would tell them what I wanted them to say. Good thing they were only shorts!

Raven, look around you, at all the people coming to post here, to help you. You are important. We know it, that's why we're here.

People don't show they care when they don't know these things about me, though.

Do you have any close friends Raven?

YOu know what I used to loive writing. I lost interest in it too. When I would make films, I barely would use scripts. I would tell them what I wanted them to say. Good thing they were only shorts!


Haha I've never been good at writing scripts. I had to write one once for a project and failed miserably.

Do you have any close friends Raven?

I used to but I'm beginning to doubt how close we really are now.

Haha, want to see one I wrote put into action?
YouTube - The Binding of Loki: Mythology Project for Fraser (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3tTPZfBGsGU)

I used to but I'm beginning to doubt how close we really are now.

Aww, that's okay Raven
I'll be your buddy!

Is there anything you want to talk about?

People don't show they care when they don't know these things about me, though.


You know sometimes that's true. A lesson to maybe be a little kinder to people.

Do you feel overwhelmed with making decisions for your future? It's true you know, when you start liking stuff about you, it's easier for other people to like things about you! I know that sounds super corney, but it's true. Like people have said, we're here to listen.

Haha, wanna see one I wrote put into action?
YouTube - The Binding of Loki: Mythology Project for Fraser (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3tTPZfBGsGU)

Haha I laughed :)
And rated 5 stars.

My comp wouldn't play it :(

You know sometimes that's true. A lesson to maybe be a little kinder to people.

Do you feel overwhelmed with making decisions for your future? It's true you know, when you start liking stuff about you, it's easier for other people to like things about you! I know that sounds super corney, but it's true. Like people have said, we're here to listen.


I'm actually really nice to people. I don't think anyone would ever guess that I feel this way. I'm not anti-social or anything.

I do feel sort of overwhelmed. It's hard for me to like things about me, though.

I'm female. And I don't really know why all of a sudden I'm feeling like this again. It comes and goes. I guess I'm just realizing that everyone has so much going for them and I'll probably always be stuck where I am. I don't have any interest in pursuing my old dreams of going to college or anything.

If you knew how bad some people had life, you'd realize that being 'stuck' isn't always a bad thing. At least, if you're stuck, you're not going downhill.


People don't show they care when they don't know these things about me, though.

Do you give them the chance?

I have a feeling you're very reserved around most people. Don't really let your emotions show. Don't really talk about yourself. Rarely share the bad things, and only talk about the things that don't really matter in the end. You probably spend more time at home, in your room, than out with friends.

If I'm right, then you're me at that age.


Now, once you feel even a little better, you need to flush those pills. Don't keep them around in case you 'need' them. Flush them so you won't be tempted.

As you watch them go down the drain, tell yourself that YOU are taking charge or your life from now on. That you're not going to let ANYONE make you feel like less than you are. That you're going to find one reason to live everyday. That you will, wherever possible, cut the people that make you feel bad about yourself, out of your life. That you will learn to love yourself. That you will tell someone who can help how you feel and ask for help.

Hey Raven, check the comments

People don't show they care when they don't know these things about me, though.

Are you sure?

Raven, I can guarantee you that I will care no matter what. I've been through a lot in my life, because of that I've made it a mission of mine to help others. That's why I'm on this site.

I have a few requests, things that I'm hoping you'll agree to.

1. Go to your doctor, get checked, tell him/her what's going on.
2. Talk to your parents about this.
3. Continue to post to us about what you're doing and how you're doing.
4. Tomorrow I want you to go for a walk. Just 15 minutes. If you have a dog take him/her with you. Also bring a pad of paper and a pen. While you're walking write down 15 things that you see that brings you happiness. It can be anything, a blade of green grass (for me that would be great, all the grass is brown right now, some of it is still covered in snow), a bird, a cat, a person that smiles at you, a worm, anything. One per minute.

Will you do that for me?

Tomorrow, after your walk, post your list.

I'll tell you 5 things on my list that happened in the last 15 minutes.

1. My daughter just came inside, she was scared because of something her brother did. She needed a hug. Her hugs are the best, always make me smile.
2. AMHD. The people on this site never cease to amaze me. Stick around and find out, they are they best people I've never met.
3. I had some caramel corn. I love it. :)
4. My puppy got out of the yard and came back when I called him.
5. I met you and I have hope for you.

if you knew how bad some people had life, you'd realize that being 'stuck' isn't always a bad thing. At least, if you're stuck, you're not going downhill.



Do you give them the chance?

I have a feeling you're very reserved around most people. Don't really let your emotions show. Don't really talk about yourself. Rarely share the bad things, and only talk about the things that don't really matter in the end. You probably spend more time at home, in your room, than out with friends.

If i'm right, then you're me at that age.


Now, once you feel even a little better, you need to flush those pills. Don't keep them around in case you 'need' them. Flush them so you won't be tempted.

As you watch them go down the drain, tell yourself that you are taking charge or your life from now on. That you're not going to let anyone make you feel like less than you are. That you're going to find one reason to live everyday. That you will, wherever possible, cut the people that make you feel bad about yourself, out of your life. That you will learn to love yourself. That you will tell someone who can help how you feel and ask for help.

Yes yes yes!

if you knew how bad some people had life, you'd realize that being 'stuck' isn't always a bad thing. at least, if you're stuck, you're not going downhill.



do you give them the chance?

i have a feeling you're very reserved around most people. don't really let your emotions show. don't really talk about yourself. rarely share the bad things, and only talk about the things that don't really matter in the end. you probably spend more time at home, in your room, than out with friends.

if i'm right, then you're me at that age.


now, once you feel even a little better, you need to flush those pills. don't keep them around in case you 'need' them. flush them so you won't be tempted.

as you watch them go down the drain, tell yourself that YOU are taking charge or your life from now on. that you're not going to let ANYONE make you feel like less than you are. that you're going to find one reason to live everyday. that you will, wherever possible, cut the people that make you feel bad about yourself, out of your life. that you will learn to love yourself. that you will tell someone who can help how you feel and ask for help.


You're pretty much exactly right about what you said about me. Thanks for all the advice.

I meant a lesson, for me too!

You're pretty much exactly right about what you said about me. Thanks for all the advice.

News flash. The majority of us feel this way at 17. We've all been there done that and lived to tell the tale. :)

Raven, you are so much like me a year ago. I have faith in you. You are going to pull through this, will all of us here supporting you

You know sometimes that's true. A lesson to maybe be a little kinder to people.

Do you feel overwhelmed with making decisions for your future? It's true you know, when you start liking stuff about you, it's easier for other people to like things about you! I know that sounds super corney, but it's true. Like people have said, we're here to listen.

I once heard a story about a man who was having a really bad day. The got up late, spilled coffee on yourself right before work, got a flat tire, had to walk to work in the rain kind of day.

On his way into the building he worked at, he held the door open for someone. The man was wetter than him and looked like his day had sucked even more, so he smiled at him while he held the door. Then he went on his way, got in the elevator, went to work in his office, and forgot all about the other man.

A couple days later he was opening the mail on his desk, when he noticed a thank you letter. Turns out, the other man had decided that morning that he was going to go to the roof of that building, and jump off. He told himself that if only ONE person smiled at him on the walk there, from several blocks over, that he wouldn't do it. That wet, upset businessman was the only person to smile at him that day, but he kept his promise to himself, and sent the businessman a thank you note to let him know how much that one, simple smile meant.

Now, I know, the story probably never actually happened. That's never mattered to me, though. I know how much a smile or a kind word can mean on a day when it seems like life isn't worth living. Ever since I heard that story, I try to smile to everyone I pass, or meet, throughout the day. You never know when you're smile will mean the world to someone else. And, on the days you need a smile the most, giving one to someone else is the surest way to get one for yourself.

Raven, you are so much like me a year ago. I have faith in you. you are gonna pull through this, will all of us here supporting you

I'm here too. Count me in. :)

I remember being a teen. That's one thing that most teens don't get, that we adults, well, we were teens once too. The times haven't changed that much since I was 17. I remember all too well how it felt. It wasn't fun. It was a daily struggle, but I survived it. We all did. You will too, if you give yourself a chance Raven.

If you do give yourself a chance, give life a chance, one day you'll be here telling a teen not to give up, to give it a chance. That's why I'm here.

I went through hell and back from the time I was five until, well, actually, the struggles and trials keep on coming.

A few days ago I found out that I'm very anemic. I'll be going in for tests to find out why but the doctor is leaning towards cancer. Both my parents died of cancer in 2001. The C word to me is the scariest word in the world.

One thing I can tell you, if it is cancer, I'll fight with everything in me. I will not give up. I will fight until I win. I plan to hold my grand kids one day and that's a long way off. I will fight for my life. You have to fight for yours.

You have the choice Raven. You're young, you're healthy, you have a lifetime ahead of you. If everything goes downhill for me then I may not have a lifetime. I'm 39. That's not long enough.

If I can fight, so can you. Right?

So lets fight together. If I do have cancer I promise you that the last thing I'll ever do is give up. So don't you give up. Okay?

One more thing. Tell us when you flush those pills. We will ALL cheer for you.

I think all of us here have known someone who attempted/committed suicide and/or attempted it ourselves.

i once heard a story about a man who was having a really bad day. the got up late, spilled coffee on yourself right before work, got a flat tire, had to walk to work in the rain kind of day.

on his way into the building he worked at, he held the door open for someone. the man was wetter than him and looked like his day had sucked even more, so he smiled at him while he held the door. then he went on his way, got in the elevator, went to work in his office, and forgot all about the other man.

a couple days later he was opening the mail on his desk, when he noticed a thank you letter. turns out, the other man had decided that morning that he was going to go to the roof of that building, and jump off. he told himself that if only ONE person smiled at him on the walk there, from several blocks over, that he wouldn't do it. that wet, upset businessman was the only person to smile at him that day, but he kept his promise to himself, and sent the businessman a thank you note to let him know how much that one, simple smile meant.

now, i know, the story probably never actually happened. that's never mattered to me, though. i know how much a smile or a kind word can mean on a day when it seems like life isn't worth living. ever since i heard that story, i try to smile to everyone i pass, or meet, throughout the day. you never know when you're smile will mean the world to someone else. and, on the days you need a smile the most, giving one to someone else is the surest way to get one for yourself.


Why do I always have to spread the rep? :(

You just made me cry Heath.

I'm sending a smile to everyone here. To everyone in the world.

I love the saying "Smile, it makes people wonder what you're thinking". :)

A few days ago I found out that I'm very anemic. I'll be going in for tests to find out why but the doctor is leaning towards cancer. Both my parents died of cancer in 2001. The C word to me is the scariest word in the world.

Alty, my heart just dropped through my stomach.

Smile. I'm here too Raven!

one more thing. tell us when you flush those pills. we will ALL cheer for you.

i think all of us here have known someone who attempted/committed suicide and/or attempted it ourselves.

My uncle did.

That was over 25 years ago. His daughters still haven't forgiven him. His oldest daughter found him. He left a note on her bed.

It's a major slap in the face. It's a "screw you" to everyone you love. It will effect them until the day they die. They'll never get over it. I never did, his daughters never did, no one ever did.

To take your own life is a very selfish act.

alty, my heart just dropped through my stomach.

I started a thread about it Heath. I posted a link in Chicky's thread.

Here's the link;

https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/other-health-wellness/colon-cancer-456286.html

I just mentioned it here because I think Raven should know that life is precious. I am so terrified that the tests will come back with cancer. No matter what I will fight.

My life isn't perfect but it's worth fighting for, just like everyone else's.

Raven, you are unique. You are one of a kind. Fight for life. That's all I can say.

Life is so precious. Life is what I'm hanging on to.

Raven is off line. :(

Raven, please come back. Talk to us. We're here for you. Okay?

Go flush those pills. Please flush them.

My uncle hung himself in the garage, and a friend shot himself in the face on the night of prom. He didn't graduate, and was too embaressed to tell anyone. It's the worst feeling to feel as a family member or friend. It is a big slap in the face to the loved ones.

Hey raven, I don't know what you are going through right this moment, but what I can tell you is that I had a cozen that hung herself, her little daughter found her in the closet and her daughter was only 8 years old. She was depressed and felt like nothing was going for her in life. Even though she had a family that wasn't enough for her to live for "she already had it program in her mind that life isnt worth living for" and everyday she have that thought, always negative, nothing positive. You know the saying what you eat is what you will become. Will samething you will act on what you think, think negative you will do negative things, think positive you will do positive things. When I was your age, I moved with my sis and her boyfriend cause I wasn't getting along with my parents and brothers, I was the black sheep of the family, all my brothers would come home with a straight A grade and I would bring home an F. So when I moved out and lived with my sis and her boyfriend for 3 years I was treated like a slave, no friends no contact with family just did what they want me to do. I had to drop out from school because they wouldn't want to take me anymore so I was a high school drop out, so many times I wanted to end my life, but for some reason I know that things will be better its just a phase in my life that I had to get through and it's a test the lord and given me. So I stuck with it for a long time the abused, the pain everyday and the no social life. I hated it but I had to keep going. Then when I turned 21 I was about to be put in prison for 10 years maximum for a stupid thing I did. That was the last straw on the camels back, and I really want to end my life. But something didn't feel right so I talked to my family, they all helped me out, they got me a good lawyer and helped me get through what I was going through, when the case ended I was only put in a 3 years probation and a fine. I then realized that even though I thought I couldn't count on my family when it comes me really needing them I saw the love that I haven't seen ever since I was a child.a few years later with no high school diploma, a student with a GPA of less then 1.0 and a criminal record I had opened a business with a friend from high school. I had no experience of doing graphic design or even doing silkscreening, but for some reason God had put me where I'm supposed to be, and now I am doing all the schools P.E cloths and all the shirts. Out of the blue God had given me a business,I have no experience, no knowledge on it but hey now I know almost everything about it. IF you look at my life in paper, people would say I am a loser, a criminal, a person with no education, he is going to either end up dead or in prison. But look at me, I have a business, we hired a graphic designer to do our art, and he is currently in a university and his working for a person with no high school education. A good friend of mine always said "if you think your life is bad, go to the hospital and look at all the people that are sick, and would give everything up just to be healthy once again" someone else always have it worse then you, just be happy that you are going through this because in the future you may help some else that is going through what you are going through. I know how it feels but life is to good to just give it up. KNow the lord and pray to God it worked for me and I know it will work for you. IF you can do me this favor go to YouTube and listen to this music it will talk to your heart I promise you that. Its by third day and the title is cry out to jesus. Please listen to that song and let me know what you think about it. God is love, and he sent his son jesus christ to die for us, so you don't have to. Keep us posted we care about you. God bless.

Not being healthy is no fun especially when it's not going to get better.

Are you sure?

Raven, I can guarantee you that I will care no matter what. I've been through a lot in my life, because of that I've made it a mission of mine to help others. That's why I'm on this site.

I have a few requests, things that I'm hoping you'll agree to.

1. Go to your doctor, get checked, tell him/her what's going on.
2. Talk to your parents about this.
3. Continue to post to us about what you're doing and how you're doing.
4. Tomorrow I want you to go for a walk. Just 15 minutes. If you have a dog take him/her with you. Also bring a pad of paper and a pen. While you're walking write down 15 things that you see that brings you happiness. It can be anything, a blade of green grass (for me that would be great, all the grass is brown right now, some of it is still covered in snow), a bird, a cat, a person that smiles at you, a worm, anything. One per minute.

Will you do that for me?

Tomorrow, after your walk, post your list.

I'll tell you 5 things on my list that happened in the last 15 minutes.

1. My daughter just came inside, she was scared because of something her brother did. She needed a hug. Her hugs are the best, always make me smile.
2. AMHD. The people on this site never cease to amaze me. Stick around and find out, they are they best people I've never met.
3. I had some caramel corn. I love it. :)
4. My puppy got out of the yard and came back when I called him.
5. I met you and I have hope for you.



1. It rained a lot over that last couple of days, and all the roads were flooded and the canals are higher. I like the water.
2. There are little yellow flower starting to grow everywhere because of the rain.
3. I saw some tadpoles in a few of the puddles. I hope they don't get run over.
4. It was actually nice out today. Usually it's either too hot or too cold out here.
5. I saw one of those huge caterpillars, the big brown furry ones. I haven't seen one since I lived up north.

I could only get five :(

A few days ago I found out that I'm very anemic. I'll be going in for tests to find out why but the doctor is leaning towards cancer. Both my parents died of cancer in 2001. The C word to me is the scariest word in the world.

One thing I can tell you, if it is cancer, I'll fight with everything in me. I will not give up. I will fight until I win. I plan to hold my grand kids one day and that's a long way off. I will fight for my life. You have to fight for yours.

You have the choice Raven. You're young, you're healthy, you have a lifetime ahead of you. If everything goes downhill for me then I may not have a lifetime. I'm 39. That's not long enough.

If I can fight, so can you. Right?

So lets fight together. If I do have cancer I promise you that the last thing I'll ever do is give up. So don't you give up. Okay?

I'm sorry to hear that you might have cancer. I hope everything turns out all right for you. :]

But I'm a weak person. I don't know if I can do it.

Raven is off line. :(

Raven, please come back. Talk to us. We're here for you. Okay?

Go flush those pills. Please flush them.


I'm sorry. I had such a headache and I just wanted to sleep.
If I flush them, I'm just worried I'll go looking for more.

1. It rained a lot over that last couple of days, and all the roads were flooded and the canals are higher. I like the water.
2. There are little yellow flower starting to grow everywhere because of the rain.
3. I saw some tadpoles in a few of the puddles. I hope they don't get run over.
4. It was actually nice out today. Usually it's either too hot or too cold out here.
5. I saw one of those huge caterpillars, the big brown furry ones. I haven't seen one since I lived up north.

I could only get five :(

Five is a start. Next time go for ten. :)

Do you have a journal or a book you can write in?

If you do, here's an "assignment" for you. Make it fun. I want you to write about 2 people in your life that you really care about and why.

After you write about why you care about them, write about why they care about you. Come up with at least 2 things.

After you do that, post it here. :)

By the way, I love fuzzy caterpillars, they're so colorful and cute. :)

I'm sorry to hear that you might have cancer. I hope everything turns out alright for you. :]

But I'm a weak person. I don't know if I can do it.

You may feel weak right now but I bet there's strength in you.

You came to this site for a reason. When you posted your question you had to know that we'd guess what you want to do. You called out for help, so there is fight in you.

Toss out the pills sweetie. Flush them down the toilet and when you do see it as a new beginning. Your life starts today. We'll get you there, just give us a chance, give a doctors visit a chance, give your parents a chance.

We're all here for you to get you further ahead, one step at a time. Take the first step, toss out the pills.

Flush them down the toilet
No, no!! My pharmacist says to take them to a pharmacy for disposal or crush them, put them back into the bottle, add water to dissolve them, seal the bottle, and throw the sealed bottle into the trash.

The OP spelled "physiologically" correctly. No one who does that should contemplate suicide. We need good spellers on this Earth.

When you're thinking of reasons to smile, don't forget all the things you'd miss if they were gone.

This site is amazing at giving reasons to smile.

1000 Awesome Things (http://1000awesomethings.com/)

The OP spelled "physiologically" correctly. No one who does that should contemplate suicide. We need good spellers on this Earth.

Haha that made me smile :)

Wondergirl is great.

And I AM a cancer survivor. Stick around, raven. It's better to be here than not to be here. (Didn't someone else say that first, something about "to be...not to be..."?)

Besides the obvious.
What exactly would happen to my body? Mind, organs, etc.

That is an odd combination. Why?

That is an odd combination. Why?

You mean the combination of pills? Just because it's all of the ones I have at the moment.

You mean the combination of pills? Just because it's all of the ones I have at the moment.
You're past this urge now, right? You're going to help me police AMHD and the rotten spellers, aren't you? And you and I are going to help the members and experts who use an apostrophe when they pluralize nouns, right? But what about all those who confuse it's and its? What should we do about them?

You're past this urge now, right? You're going to help me police AMHD and the rotten spellers, aren't you? And you and I are going to help the members and experts who use an apostrophe when they pluralize nouns, right? But what about all those who confuse it's and its? What should we do about them?

I feel better than I did the other day but it's still there in the back of my mind. I honestly don't know what to do about the its/it's situation, haha. Someone has to think of something.

Don't forget the people who can't differentiate there/their/they're. Or the people who DON'T use apostrophes and end up confusing the rest of us by spelling we're as were. Or the people who replace words, or parts of words, with numbers or single letters.

don't forget the people who can't differentiate there/their/they're. or the people who DON'T use apostrophes and end up confusing the rest of us by spelling we're as were. or the people who replace words, or parts of words, with numbers or single letters.

Srsly. Typing lyk this seems lyk it wuld only take longer anyway. I don't get why people do it.

I've tried it before. Not only did it take FOREVER, but it made my head hurt.

The world really does need more teenagers like you. Far too many of them just don't see the importance of NOT typing like an illiterate pre-schooler. I'd hate to see what they're job applications look like.

I feel better than I did the other day but it's still there in the back of my mind. I honestly don't know what to do about the its/it's situation, haha. Someone has to think of something.
Well, we need you in this world. I'm old and going to die one of these days. I'll die with a smile on my face if I know you're going to be around to take over for me.

I hate chat speak too! But I am a terrible speller :(

Raven, have you made your list of things that make you smile for today? You didn't say anything about it? :confused:

Hheath, mind your capital letters at the start of a sentence! ;)

Raven, have you made your list of things that make you smile for today? You didn't say anything about it? :confused:

hheath, mind your capital letters at the start of a sentence! ;)


I didn't know I was supposed to do one every day :o


Well I guess I can think of a few.
1. I can finally play the intro to a song I've been working on learning.
2. This one's dumb but I found an ant on my desk and named it Duane and it made my friend and I laugh at the time.
3. A few people complimented my drawing that I've been working on.
4. I didn't have to write an essay in my AP Literature class today for once. Plus I got my essay from last class up on the board. (I'm such a little kid, liking when my essays get hung up, haha).
5. I'm excused from school tomorrow to go to Tampa for a USF visit.

I didn't know I was supposed to do one every day :o


Well I guess I can think of a few.
1. I can finally play the intro to a song I've been working on learning.
2. This one's dumb but I found an ant on my desk and named it Duane and it made my friend and I laugh at the time.
3. A few people complimented my drawing that I've been working on.
4. I didn't have to write an essay in my AP Literature class today for once. Plus I got my essay from last class up on the board. (I'm such a little kid, liking when my essays get hung up, haha).
5. I'm excused from school tomorrow to go to Tampa for a USF visit.

there's nothing dumb about naming an ant duane. Now, on the other hand, if you had named it antoine, that would've just been silly ^_~

I didn't know I was supposed to do one every day :o


Well I guess I can think of a few.
1. I can finally play the intro to a song I've been working on learning.
2. This one's dumb but I found an ant on my desk and named it Duane and it made my friend and I laugh at the time.
3. A few people complimented my drawing that I've been working on.
4. I didn't have to write an essay in my AP Literature class today for once. Plus I got my essay from last class up on the board. (I'm such a little kid, liking when my essays get hung up, haha).
5. I'm excused from school tomorrow to go to Tampa for a USF visit.

And congratulations for your essay being hung up! :)

See? There are things you are good at. You could even end up writing book one day and help other people through it. Just saying ;)