Jinxz
Nov 3, 2009, 08:53 PM
Hello all,
I need some help on a touchy topic. I think I have clinical depression and I haven't talked to anyone about it yet. Its my 3rd year and Im sick and tired of it. I want to get better. I hate having negative thoughts, and having all these sad, raged, happy bursts of mood. I seem like a happy and hyper person but when I get home I break down and cry. Im so strange and messed up, I hate it now. Through out my years, Ive tried sucicide (3 times), but I got out of it, with the help of my dear friend. But now, she's having troubles of her own and I can't talk to her about mine... I don't know who to go to now... I don't know what to do anymore, I feel worthless, all the things I used to love are fading away. My favourite subject at school (Science) is so challenging and frustrating now. I can't do anything right at all, Im a complete failiture at everything, even the simplest of things.
The friend I talked to last year said I should get some help, but I refused, but now I think I need some, I don't want to go to a counseller and tell that stranger everything, and I heard about Anti-depressants. I want to get some. I can't handle this anymore, I need something. How would I get some? Can I walk into a Walk In Health Clinic and see a doctor and tell him I have depression and ask for Anti-depressants? I doubt it's that easy though, what do I have to do? I don't want my parents to know either. I don't want to explain to that doctor my whole life story either. How do I go on about getting some? (Btw Im 15)
I need some help on a touchy topic. I think I have clinical depression and I haven't talked to anyone about it yet. Its my 3rd year and Im sick and tired of it. I want to get better. I hate having negative thoughts, and having all these sad, raged, happy bursts of mood. I seem like a happy and hyper person but when I get home I break down and cry. Im so strange and messed up, I hate it now. Through out my years, Ive tried sucicide (3 times), but I got out of it, with the help of my dear friend. But now, she's having troubles of her own and I can't talk to her about mine... I don't know who to go to now... I don't know what to do anymore, I feel worthless, all the things I used to love are fading away. My favourite subject at school (Science) is so challenging and frustrating now. I can't do anything right at all, Im a complete failiture at everything, even the simplest of things.
The friend I talked to last year said I should get some help, but I refused, but now I think I need some, I don't want to go to a counseller and tell that stranger everything, and I heard about Anti-depressants. I want to get some. I can't handle this anymore, I need something. How would I get some? Can I walk into a Walk In Health Clinic and see a doctor and tell him I have depression and ask for Anti-depressants? I doubt it's that easy though, what do I have to do? I don't want my parents to know either. I don't want to explain to that doctor my whole life story either. How do I go on about getting some? (Btw Im 15)