xxsmileyface
Oct 29, 2009, 07:53 PM
Hello everyone! So, let me start by saying that I am pretty sure that I'm bisexual, though it may be hormones or whatever, but I highly doubt it. I'm a sophomore in high school, and since last year I've really liked this guy, who is pretty straight going off what everyone else says. We're friends, or acquaintances at the least, more so this year then last. Unfortunately, I like him A LOT. So much that it hurts sometimes.
A few weeks ago, we went to a party together with some other friends, and I got drunk (not badly) and told him that I was "in love" with him. I don't recall saying this, but my friend swears that I did, so I believe it. The next day I texted him and asked if I say anything that "may have been embarrassing" for me, and he said that he remembered the whole night, and that it was fine. While at the party, us both in drunken states, I (as I already stated) told him that I liked him a lot, to which he responded that "if he was bi" he'd hook up with me, or that if he was "a little drunker" he'd probably do it. This made me really happy (for some odd reason, just because he said that doesn't mean he is homosexually inclined), but also really confused and upset. I don't know why, it just feels like I went a little closer and then got pushed back three million steps.
He's been really nice about it and things haven't been awkward between us, but I still can't help but feel so strongly for him. It sucks so much because I don't want to feel like this. He's really flirtatious with a lot of girls and it makes me extremely jealous, but it's not like I'll tell him to stop. Ughh, so frustrating. I've tried to get over it, but the more I try the harder it gets. Can anyone out there give me some advice on what I should do or how I should proceed with him? I've come to the conclusion that if I can't be with him, then I want to be really good friends at the least. But, yeah, any help is appreciated! Thanks so much for trying to help me out.
A few weeks ago, we went to a party together with some other friends, and I got drunk (not badly) and told him that I was "in love" with him. I don't recall saying this, but my friend swears that I did, so I believe it. The next day I texted him and asked if I say anything that "may have been embarrassing" for me, and he said that he remembered the whole night, and that it was fine. While at the party, us both in drunken states, I (as I already stated) told him that I liked him a lot, to which he responded that "if he was bi" he'd hook up with me, or that if he was "a little drunker" he'd probably do it. This made me really happy (for some odd reason, just because he said that doesn't mean he is homosexually inclined), but also really confused and upset. I don't know why, it just feels like I went a little closer and then got pushed back three million steps.
He's been really nice about it and things haven't been awkward between us, but I still can't help but feel so strongly for him. It sucks so much because I don't want to feel like this. He's really flirtatious with a lot of girls and it makes me extremely jealous, but it's not like I'll tell him to stop. Ughh, so frustrating. I've tried to get over it, but the more I try the harder it gets. Can anyone out there give me some advice on what I should do or how I should proceed with him? I've come to the conclusion that if I can't be with him, then I want to be really good friends at the least. But, yeah, any help is appreciated! Thanks so much for trying to help me out.