lynnybaydo
Sep 23, 2009, 08:56 AM
My father left us when I was 4, which was about 14 years ago. I think I've figured out for myself that he left because he never wanted kids or a family, he just wanted the kind of "rock star" life. That's fine, I've accepted that and moved on.
In the custody agreement, he was supposed to visit my brothers and I for a few hours every Sunday and have us up to his house a few times a year. The last time we were up at his house was about two years ago, when he told me we probably wouldn't have our visits up to his house when I turned 18. It seems as if he's been gradually trying to get away from me. He's been phasing out our lunches on Sundays and cancelling sometimes. He hasn't called me in over six months. And the last straw that broke me down was when he didn't want to take me with him on the drive to my cousins wedding in California, he wanted me to find my own way there.
I've accepted him not wanting to be tied down, but what I can't understand is how he can't stand his only 18 year old daughter so much that he can't even be in a car with me for 10 hours. I don't know why my own father doesn't seem to like me as a person. I really don't want to talk to him about this because I have a feeling I'm going to be left feeling stupid and like I put myself out there for someone who doesn't want me. It's been really upsetting recently and I'd like some advice if anyone has any :)
In the custody agreement, he was supposed to visit my brothers and I for a few hours every Sunday and have us up to his house a few times a year. The last time we were up at his house was about two years ago, when he told me we probably wouldn't have our visits up to his house when I turned 18. It seems as if he's been gradually trying to get away from me. He's been phasing out our lunches on Sundays and cancelling sometimes. He hasn't called me in over six months. And the last straw that broke me down was when he didn't want to take me with him on the drive to my cousins wedding in California, he wanted me to find my own way there.
I've accepted him not wanting to be tied down, but what I can't understand is how he can't stand his only 18 year old daughter so much that he can't even be in a car with me for 10 hours. I don't know why my own father doesn't seem to like me as a person. I really don't want to talk to him about this because I have a feeling I'm going to be left feeling stupid and like I put myself out there for someone who doesn't want me. It's been really upsetting recently and I'd like some advice if anyone has any :)