prollydrunk1203
Sep 22, 2009, 02:05 AM
how do I get over my x?
Ok, so I've dated this girl for just about 2 years, and we broke up about 2 months ago, I'm turning 20 and she's about to turn 18. ( just to give an age range ) let start from the beginning. When we were in high school, when I was a junior on the last day of school, I saw her crying, I didn't even know her, and I walked up to her, and told her not to cry because whatever it was wasn't worth it, because she was in my trade, (tech school) and I was always close to girls and always new what to say to them to make them smile. I made a joke or 2, and she smiled. I added her on myspace during the summer, we started talking on aim.
we became really close, and the first time we hung out, we had sex, I don't consider her a hoe or anything for that, the way we were talking, we were so close, always wanting to hang out, but I always was working or doing something. But when we finally did that happened.
a couple of weeks later, school started. 15 days later, I wrote a note, hah so high school of me
gave it to her friend, to give to her asking if she would go out with me. She said yes, gave me a kiss. Time went by, we got closer and closer. I think I may have become to obsessive because I've been arrested a few times because of her. A sophomore while I was a senior, decided he was brave enough to grab my girlfriends ( well x now ) in front of me, and say I looked like a wet dog, because I would just shower and go to school, and I was growing my hair out too get it braided. So after I seen that, I decided to walk up to him, not knowing him or who he was though he was 6'3 and 200 something lbs and I was 147 lbs 5'9, punch him in the nose, after I hit him and sent him to the hospital and being arrested and locked up. I find out she has a new boyfriend. And moved on, blah blah blah I don't no how I did it, but she broke up with him and came back to me, she started living with me.
the start of a family
my mother adored my girlfriend, she new that I loved her, and I was acting so much nicer, and helping out a lot more. I graduated high school, after being told I would never amount to anything by my father, ( he was very abusive for most of my childhood ) I landed a job in a gas station, thinking I would make minimum wage and bring home 300$ a week at the most, to my surprise I was working 80 hours a week, and I was able to provide everything for my mother and the love of my life. I geuss it is my fault now that I thnk about it, because I was never home, I was always working. I was just trying to make her happy, thinking money was the solution. I geuss that one day while I was at work, she was lonely and decided my brother was the right (comfort) person. They made out probably had sex. And I hadn't talked to my brother for the longest or her, as you can tell we broke up again. We went back out, and I'm going to make this really short now, I started drinking very heavily, because after working 20 hours a day is very tiring, I wanted to drink and fall asleep. And everything from my past about me and her would make me lash out on her while drinking. I'm not trying to play innocent I want the truth to get out to make me feel better, and I am now.
I'm going to skip a lot, but I started drinking we would always argue, because of the past.
I never cheated on her, until I found out that she cheated on me with my brother.
and I wanted to pay her back, but after the first time I did, I relised. 2 wrongs don't make a right! I felt horrible, and wondered how she could do that to me, with someone that was supposed to always be close to me, she also cheated on me with 2 of my best friends, who I no longer speak too. And this is were me and her are done for 3 months and haven't spoken since, and I miss her so much, I was the one to break up with her for cheating, I just can't seem to move on, I have a lot of pride, so I'm not one to show any emotions.
I would never tell her I miss her, though I told her I still loved her. Recently I found out she has moved in with her new boyfriend. I don't no if its to make me jealous, or if she is finally happy, if she is happy I'm happy, because her telling me this, I am happy for her, I wish her the best. Because I love her, with everything in me. I just want to let everyone know, that even though I was drinking and I left a lot out, and I can keep typing about her forever, I have never laid a hand on her, I have hit a few walls though when I found out what she did =/ at the cost of my own hand.
I think the hardest thing to find out about her
is that she told me she was pregnant and it was my child
and when I went to see her, she told me it wasn't mine
and she aborted it.
I just don't know how to get over her, that's my question
its been so long. I've ruined so many new relationships
thinking me and her would get back together
after she calls me to hang out or sleep over
and we just have sex, telling me " your is the best, the only one that can make me " I mean I love pleasing her, making love, but that's not why I want to hang out with her
I want to get over her, how do I do it.
I got a lot of questions I've been bottling this all up for months
and don't no how to get it out!
Ok, so I've dated this girl for just about 2 years, and we broke up about 2 months ago, I'm turning 20 and she's about to turn 18. ( just to give an age range ) let start from the beginning. When we were in high school, when I was a junior on the last day of school, I saw her crying, I didn't even know her, and I walked up to her, and told her not to cry because whatever it was wasn't worth it, because she was in my trade, (tech school) and I was always close to girls and always new what to say to them to make them smile. I made a joke or 2, and she smiled. I added her on myspace during the summer, we started talking on aim.
we became really close, and the first time we hung out, we had sex, I don't consider her a hoe or anything for that, the way we were talking, we were so close, always wanting to hang out, but I always was working or doing something. But when we finally did that happened.
a couple of weeks later, school started. 15 days later, I wrote a note, hah so high school of me
gave it to her friend, to give to her asking if she would go out with me. She said yes, gave me a kiss. Time went by, we got closer and closer. I think I may have become to obsessive because I've been arrested a few times because of her. A sophomore while I was a senior, decided he was brave enough to grab my girlfriends ( well x now ) in front of me, and say I looked like a wet dog, because I would just shower and go to school, and I was growing my hair out too get it braided. So after I seen that, I decided to walk up to him, not knowing him or who he was though he was 6'3 and 200 something lbs and I was 147 lbs 5'9, punch him in the nose, after I hit him and sent him to the hospital and being arrested and locked up. I find out she has a new boyfriend. And moved on, blah blah blah I don't no how I did it, but she broke up with him and came back to me, she started living with me.
the start of a family
my mother adored my girlfriend, she new that I loved her, and I was acting so much nicer, and helping out a lot more. I graduated high school, after being told I would never amount to anything by my father, ( he was very abusive for most of my childhood ) I landed a job in a gas station, thinking I would make minimum wage and bring home 300$ a week at the most, to my surprise I was working 80 hours a week, and I was able to provide everything for my mother and the love of my life. I geuss it is my fault now that I thnk about it, because I was never home, I was always working. I was just trying to make her happy, thinking money was the solution. I geuss that one day while I was at work, she was lonely and decided my brother was the right (comfort) person. They made out probably had sex. And I hadn't talked to my brother for the longest or her, as you can tell we broke up again. We went back out, and I'm going to make this really short now, I started drinking very heavily, because after working 20 hours a day is very tiring, I wanted to drink and fall asleep. And everything from my past about me and her would make me lash out on her while drinking. I'm not trying to play innocent I want the truth to get out to make me feel better, and I am now.
I'm going to skip a lot, but I started drinking we would always argue, because of the past.
I never cheated on her, until I found out that she cheated on me with my brother.
and I wanted to pay her back, but after the first time I did, I relised. 2 wrongs don't make a right! I felt horrible, and wondered how she could do that to me, with someone that was supposed to always be close to me, she also cheated on me with 2 of my best friends, who I no longer speak too. And this is were me and her are done for 3 months and haven't spoken since, and I miss her so much, I was the one to break up with her for cheating, I just can't seem to move on, I have a lot of pride, so I'm not one to show any emotions.
I would never tell her I miss her, though I told her I still loved her. Recently I found out she has moved in with her new boyfriend. I don't no if its to make me jealous, or if she is finally happy, if she is happy I'm happy, because her telling me this, I am happy for her, I wish her the best. Because I love her, with everything in me. I just want to let everyone know, that even though I was drinking and I left a lot out, and I can keep typing about her forever, I have never laid a hand on her, I have hit a few walls though when I found out what she did =/ at the cost of my own hand.
I think the hardest thing to find out about her
is that she told me she was pregnant and it was my child
and when I went to see her, she told me it wasn't mine
and she aborted it.
I just don't know how to get over her, that's my question
its been so long. I've ruined so many new relationships
thinking me and her would get back together
after she calls me to hang out or sleep over
and we just have sex, telling me " your is the best, the only one that can make me " I mean I love pleasing her, making love, but that's not why I want to hang out with her
I want to get over her, how do I do it.
I got a lot of questions I've been bottling this all up for months
and don't no how to get it out!