slickbutlost
Sep 9, 2009, 09:44 PM
So, sit back relax and enjoy my love life story. As ridiculous this may sound, I am 18 but I've been practically dating this girls since I was 14. Yeah I know crazy crap for a kid my age right? She is a year and a half older me so the age gap has something to do with our problem I'm sure. I've been her only real BF and I know this because I've seen it all with her but not in that sense, you nasties. Anyway, we've broken up a few times, troubles here and there you know the couple stuff. The last time we broke up we did for a year and a half, but to my amazement I still loved her. I so we went back out again January 2009 after my mother passed away. We were fine, having a good time, but we never had sex. She wanted to wait and well she was one of those girls you can't believe is such a saint but she is. I respected her decision so I never forced her to do anything sexual. Now, she has very few friends because she has been back stabbed all her life, but the few ones she had, she would club with them. All girls by the way. I didn't have a problem with it.
I'll admit, I have a very low patience to things that piss me off, and when she pissed me off I would over react, but I didn't mean to it's just my nature. We begin to get on each others nerves a little bit. I began to grow jealous of her talking to this guy that was really not a threat but I still didn't like it. Do I look like the bad guy yet? Okay good. She's always had this attitude problem herself, acts as if she doesn't care about anything. I try to clear the problems we've had but she's like "forget it just drop it" when I'm trying to fix it. So that falls into another argument. So yeah full of sometimes. But, when we have a great time, it was awesome. Great connection. It's either great or incredibly bad. Also, I'm a very romantic guy right? I like love, I love it. She never does anything cute or say ILY until I do it, then again she has never been a big fan of showing her emotions. That also frustrated me.
A few days ago we argued again, but this time I had a reason. I asked to her to the club because I just turned 18 and I've never experienced it before. I asked her, she said no because she stopped liking it and was "getting over it". The next day she text me and says that she's going out. I was like you won't got with me once but you'll go with your friend? Of course I was going to get mad. So she has nothing to say to that. The next day she tries to make things okay but I was still sore about it so I was an . I made her cry. I know I feel like but look at all that I had build up. She would act like she doesn't care and that was bad enough. I had a lot on my chest. Anyway, she said that she was tired of it and we should break up, I was like noooooooooo. I apologized for being an . I explained it to her, but she didn't care, she didn't want to know anything. I can't change her mind. I've cried idgaf I'll admit it. I didn't mean to make her sad but she did piss me off and I don't like to stay quiet. So now we're not together, and it's killing me. She said we're to young to be fighting like this and we should live our lives. I was torn. I don't know what to do. Move on? Keep trying? See other people? Now she's clubbing again after she said she was "over it". You see why I get mad? Don't I have a reason? I'm broken, I wish I could have stopped myself from over reacting, but it's to late. Sometimes it doesn't feel right being with her, but other times it does. I'm confused. I don't know what to do, or say, I don't know if it's worth trying again because we really don't agree on a lot, but she is what I'm not you know? Idk someone save me.
I'll admit, I have a very low patience to things that piss me off, and when she pissed me off I would over react, but I didn't mean to it's just my nature. We begin to get on each others nerves a little bit. I began to grow jealous of her talking to this guy that was really not a threat but I still didn't like it. Do I look like the bad guy yet? Okay good. She's always had this attitude problem herself, acts as if she doesn't care about anything. I try to clear the problems we've had but she's like "forget it just drop it" when I'm trying to fix it. So that falls into another argument. So yeah full of sometimes. But, when we have a great time, it was awesome. Great connection. It's either great or incredibly bad. Also, I'm a very romantic guy right? I like love, I love it. She never does anything cute or say ILY until I do it, then again she has never been a big fan of showing her emotions. That also frustrated me.
A few days ago we argued again, but this time I had a reason. I asked to her to the club because I just turned 18 and I've never experienced it before. I asked her, she said no because she stopped liking it and was "getting over it". The next day she text me and says that she's going out. I was like you won't got with me once but you'll go with your friend? Of course I was going to get mad. So she has nothing to say to that. The next day she tries to make things okay but I was still sore about it so I was an . I made her cry. I know I feel like but look at all that I had build up. She would act like she doesn't care and that was bad enough. I had a lot on my chest. Anyway, she said that she was tired of it and we should break up, I was like noooooooooo. I apologized for being an . I explained it to her, but she didn't care, she didn't want to know anything. I can't change her mind. I've cried idgaf I'll admit it. I didn't mean to make her sad but she did piss me off and I don't like to stay quiet. So now we're not together, and it's killing me. She said we're to young to be fighting like this and we should live our lives. I was torn. I don't know what to do. Move on? Keep trying? See other people? Now she's clubbing again after she said she was "over it". You see why I get mad? Don't I have a reason? I'm broken, I wish I could have stopped myself from over reacting, but it's to late. Sometimes it doesn't feel right being with her, but other times it does. I'm confused. I don't know what to do, or say, I don't know if it's worth trying again because we really don't agree on a lot, but she is what I'm not you know? Idk someone save me.