I've posted on here a few times before and got some pretty good advice that helped me along, so I'm back on again to ask for some help.

I feel like there's a "wall" being put up on my life, and I'm really, really damn depressed from it. Everything is going down hill for me and I can't stand it. Most of the time I'm always upbeat and happy but lately I just can't take it so I'm just going to fume everything I can right now and hopefully get some advice or something back.

I hated high school, graduated with like a 1.2GPA and anything that I want to do (lawyer, doctor, etc.) it pretty much not possible I guess.
I don't really even want to have a job like that I want to be in the Air Force. I've been trying to enlist in the USAF since over two years ago but keeps getting in the way.
Like for instance I'd get traffic tickets, or I'd be lazy and not finish my paperwork and whatever and my enlistment constantly just keeps getting delayed.
Since I just recently graduated I've been trying to finish my enlistment because it feels like my life isn't going anywhere and I just want to get a move on, all my friends are going away to college and I feel like I'm not going anywhere and I hate it.
I finished all my paperwork and submitted it and the next thing you know I get two photo-radar tickets in the mail, and my recruiter told me that I had some sort of financial issue he would discuss with me on Friday.
About two months ago I moved out of my parents house and lived with some friends and during that time I racked up 700$ on a credit card out of spite and lack of money, that I am paying off every month. Yet again, another obstacle that is delaying my enlistment I think.. I'll find out Friday.
And it all ing sucks because the longer I wait to enlist the more I'm limited to what jobs I can select, and on top of that I'm colorblind, so I can't really do jack ing sh*t anyway but I still have some selection.
A couple of days ago I let this kid ride my crotch rocket and he wrecked it. It won't run, he said he'd pay for it but I guarantee he won't pay for it. The crotch rocket is 100% illegal because the lady I bought it from is screwing me over for the title and I can't buy insurance or registration and it's my only mode of transportation.th

Everything just sucks so bad right now and I'm crashing down. I can't get my life on the move because bad stuff keeps happening and as of right now I feel like I'm a complete failure. I feel miserable, I'm losing the few friends I have, I have no vehicle, My job blows, I'm in debt, I can't get any scholarships for college, I can't get my life started.

I just always seem to get the worst of the worst when it comes to anything. I usually always bottle it up but I can't take it anymore and I'm starting to crash.. I hate feeling like this I'm losing sleep over it. I feel like sh*t.

Help?

It sounds like you just need to take care of business.

Stop being a procrastinator and learn how to manage your affairs.

Putting things off always comes back to biting you in the butt.

If you have a hard time with taking care of business,realize that you can't tackle everything at once.

Concentrate on one thing at a time.

You are feeling overwhelmed because too much is happening and you aren't dealing with issues when they arise.

Know that everything you want is not going to happen overnight and take baby steps to get things done.

Make a list of your priorities and stick with it!

It takes practice to learn how to be a responsible adult.

Don't waste time beating yourself up over what you have or have not done,just get moving toward your goals,one step at a time.

Hi, Mattg2!

Okay. If I told you how my life is right now and how I really feel, it would probably blow you and others away.

You're making some choices here, and making choices is a big part of what life is about.

Where do you live, please? I have a very good reason for asking that question. Just knowing your general geographical location would be helpful. I'm in Rock Island, IL.

A short and concise answer would be the best...

Thanks!

You've listed some excellent points, artlady!

Hi again, Mattg2!

Please don't lose hope! But, we really need to communicate with you as to what's going on with you!

Please continue to write here.

Thanks!

Matt, I am typing as I read your post here, so please bear with me.
Firstly, we all face walls in our lives. Don't let no wall get in your way. Just don't stand for it. You are a human being, and nothing can stand in the way of a human being with a bit of grit in them, as long as you don't give up on things. It may take time, but obstacles will fall before you as long as you keep trying to overcome them.
Secondly, a low score in school may slow you down, but it is in no way a wall. You can use bridging courses, tertiary schooling and various other forms of education to get the qualifications you need for University, and for the air force. My dad has just retired from the Royal Australian Air Force, which he was in for almost 30 years. He only attended the role calls each day at school and wagged for the rest of the day when he did school.
Thirdly, yes, it is easy to fall victim to procrastination. Complaining about it does not help, as this wall of yours is built out of procrastination. You are building it thicker and higher each time you put something off. I know it is a hard thing to break out of, I have had similar problems in my life, but it can be done.
Finally, financial debt is in no way an end to your hopes and dreams. With care and self discipline, it can be overcome.
I wish you luck with joining the United States Air Force, the military is a great place for a person with your kind of problems, as the discipine and training and the career can be a great help. Ask your recruiter for advice, he can probably tell you how to work things out, as he is eager to sign young people up.
Just be careful, signing up for the military is a huge commitment, and there are risks.
I wish you the best of luck, and hope my advice makes some kind of sense.