I'll keep it short and sweet as I don't want to exhaust any of you with a long emotional story.
Things hadn't been great for a month between my partner and I. I was dealing with some issues and basically pushed her away. No body cheated, nobody lied. I just wasn't coping very well with outside problems and one day I'd be all loved up and the next I'd be pushing her away.
We live about forty miles away, from each other. It is a long distance affair. That adds pressure, also.
Five weeks ago I receive a text stating she was unhappy. I call her she shouts and then I beg to see her but she goes to stay with her best friend. She then ignores me for five days and I receive a letter. Saying she can't walk on egg shells anymore, which is a fair point. That night I apooligise for breaking her heart and that I have to be resposible for my actions and suffer the consequences. Which I am. I feel my soul has shattered. Ok so you're probably thinking, get NC get over it. However after two days she was talking to me and telling me she didn't want to get over me and she just needs to work through thngs separately. I agreed then she texted me a few weeks later, angry as she thinks I'd moved on already, which I haven't because I love her more than anything in my entire world.
The way she speaks to me is suggesting it isn't over but then two weeks ago we both had a vent at each other and she asked what would be different, I tell hell I had counselling. I'm made a five year plan, regarding career and where I want to be and that I want her to be a part of my life and share my success's, what we had planned all a long. Moving in together, planning and discussing growing old togther. etc.
She didn't reply. I thought she would need time to think abvout what I said so we didn't speak for two weeks. I didn't call, message, not anything. My birthday arose in these two weeks past but I didn't receive anything. I just left her alone to think.
Yesterday for the first time I popped onto Facebook briefly and as soon as I was on she said 'hello'. She kept apologising to me and I told her not to because I wasn't angry and understood. She said she didn't know what else to say and I told her to just be herself and then she turned on herself saying she was an idiot and is making things worse.and she couldn't cope with the fact thought that I had removed her from my life all together. Through my mind I felt hurt, angry and upset but I changed the subject, to a more lighter note. After a fewexchanged messages of talking non sensical , I realised what I was doing and that she hadn't given me what I wanted to hear so I just logged off.

I'm just wanting your honest opinions guys. I have goals and I have plans and I can see a future without her but I love her a lot and I know she loves me. She told me and said she misses me.Do I just remain doing NC or do I tell her how I feel because it is all or nothing for me. I don't think it would be possible to be friends as if either one of us actually moved on it would be devastating to the other.

How old are you guys?
I mean she doesn't seem certain at all as to what she wants, but yet she seems to get angry that you are willing to move on with your life.
It sounds like a game in which you don't need right now. If she wants to be with you she would, and would try to work at it.
It is not fair to you for her to just pop up every time she thinks you moved on from her or with your life, and demand your attention only to confuse you all the more about her intentions.

Do you see how unhealthy this is for your emotional well being?

Why sacrifice your life goals for someone who is not being straight forward with you?

I think you should be honest with her, if something bothers you communicate that to her, and if she doesn't want to listen, then at this point you have done all that you can.

Life is too short to be playing games, either she wants to be with you or she doesn't. There is no in between.

In the end don't forget that self love is far more important than the love for someone else and the sooner you realize this the easier your decisions will be.

Think about it.

We're both 24. I know I must admit, last night was emotionally draining for me. I do want to just say to her X,Y&z and that she has to decide. I just don't understand how someone who claims to love you with their 'entire breath' could put some one through this kind of game. If she doesn't want to be with me then it'll hurt but I could accept it and work on me. Should I just do it?

We're both 24. I know i must admit, last night was emotionally draining for me. I do want to just say to her X,Y&z and that she has to decide. I just don't understand how someone who claims to love you with their 'entire breath' could put some one through this kind of game. If she doesn't want to be with me then it'll hurt but i could accept it and work on me. Should i just do it?

I mean it is up to you, but if you don't get it off your chest it would just bother you.

You are still young, and don't have time to be playing cat and mouse with her.

If you know what you want and she is not providing why in the world would you sacrifice your own happiness to be in a unstable relationship.


You don't even know where you stand. You need that, you need effective communication, and closure.

Just say what you have to say and although it will hurt if she doesn't respond the way you want you know you have to move on

Don't worry it will not be the end, but the beginning to start anew and find someone with common interest. Who will make you feel loved and wanted all the time.

I'm going to say something tonight. I have asked before but she said she 'doesn't know'.
You are right.
Even though the outcome maybe not what I want to hear.
I have my own emotional well being to take care off.
It has suffered a lot these past weeks, It isn't fair.

I'm going to say something tonight. I have asked before but she said she 'doesn't know'.
You are right.
Even though the outcome maybe not what i want to hear.
I have my own emotional well being to take care off.
It has suffered a lot these past weeks, It isn't fair.

Be prepared that if you cut off contact, she might all of a sudden be ready to be in a relationship. Only to confuse you all the more.

Prepare yourself on how you are going to react to that. And make standards before you talk to her as to what you will accept or not.

Good luck
Hope it all works out for you.

p.s. she has to understand that for her actions there are consequences, and if she decide she doesn't want to be with you, she has to accept the part of you moving on.

Threads merged, and edited.

I need to send something to my Ex. It has been a confusing time. This is the letter I intend to send. I hope you can give me feed back, before I actually send it.

I feel like you need to say something to me. Like to maybe appease guilt? I can't do that for you.

Actions result in consequences. Believe me. I've learnt a lot in the past few months.

Like poison from an adders tongue which needs to be spit it out, I regret to tell you I'm not OK, with what ever it is you think you need to do with me.

I have been clear of what I wanted from day one after the aftermath of it all. You haven't.

I'm strong again and I'm looking out for my emotional well being.

I just don't see how we can be friends? I've taken counsel from numerous books and sites and friends.

When you are in love as much as we were and best friends, keeping a connection of friends is nearly impossible.

If you are unable to heal and work on it ,then you'll always remain hurt and angry and you don't keep friends near by like that.

This isn't any kind of relationship I've ever had before. This felt like the real thing. It was for me the real thing, anyway.

To ever feel like I have a chance to feel this way again or even a small fraction of it, then having each other in our lives will always hurt and you said you wanted to stop hurting and so do I.

I need to move on from this pain, with or without you. I hope after the initial hurt and anger you remember that I was the girl you once loved.



I would like it very much if you would take the time to reply.

Uh, people shouldn't have to go looking for your other posts so they can understand what you're posting here. If you have something to add, add it to the thread you already have going.

Otherwise, why such a dramatic letter? I had to re-read it a few times to even understand what you were saying. If the point is "i don't want to be friends" why not leave it at that?

I honestly was just about to say the same thing. We need a full explanation in one post. I agree as well with "Why not leave it at that?"

Your posts were merged to save the confusion and keep the whole story in one place.

Send your letter, and do what you say. If your going to make such a stand, stick to it and go NO CONTACT. Let that be your closure and the start of your healing, or else you are as confused as she is. Don't be!!

I agree. Say what you have to say. It its not what you want, let it come to an end, its closure then, and move on. As hard as it, it will be a new beginning. Good luck.

For pete's sake went on Facebook, as soon as I got on... 'do you want me to delete you from here?' Woah, I'd only been on for a minute so I replied 'is that what you want to do?' 'no'. I had prepared myself for this big 'you either work on it with me or we go are separate ways and have no contact. I can't now as she'd probabl cry. I'm the one who got dumped by a letter. I need to stay calm, sleep on it. Re group and do it tomorrow.

For pete's sake went on facebook, as soon as i got on... 'do you want me to delete you from here?' Woah, i'd only been on for a minute so i replied 'is that what you want to do?' 'no'. i had prepared my self for this big 'you either work on it with me or we go are seperate ways and have no contact. i can't now as she'd probabl cry. i'm the one who got dumped by a letter. I need to stay calm, sleep on it. re group and do it tomorrow.

Drop it. Drop her. You're being played.

It does sound like she is playing games. Don't get involved with it again, it'll end in heartbreak.

She texted me saying she was upset with the situation, still and that she has taken a job promotion that she hates and I'm the only person who understands. I changed the subject to Mischa Barton getting fat. She laughed and said she needed to hear that. Then told me I was something else, In the kind of way as @Wow you're brilliant'. I seriously don't know what is happening and what I am doing.

Your keeping the spark alive in your head, and that's feeding you hope she will change her mind, and take you back. Did you send that letter? Did you make a decision, and stick to it?? Did you do as you said you were going to?

I didn't think so. You ARE just as confused as she is.

No I didn't send the letter and no, I didn't stick to any decision I made. I got sucked into the line 'no one really understands me, but you'. I am fool and I have made this situation worse.

Both of you seem to be playing ping-pong with each other's feelings. If it's fun, then continue playing. If not, then layout what you both want out of this relationship and get on the same page, or leave each other alone.
A long distance relationship is no excuse to be hesitant and disrespectful of the other person's feelings.

No i didn't send the letter and no, I didn't stick to any decision i made. I got sucked into the line 'no one really understands me, but you'. I am fool and i have made this situation worse.

This relationship is toxic. You are not growing, just being set back by false expectations with a partner who seems confused. She wants a relationship on her terms, but you are not seeing that.
You're only young once, but you can be immature forever. Grow up, get control over your life. Remove this toxic person from your life for a moment, because you should be moving forward not backwards.

"the main thing is keeping the main thing the main thing" and that is your happiness. Don't lose sight to that, this person is not making you happy instead taking a part of you with them.

What are you gaining? A healthy relationship should be complimentary not supplementary

I'm goimg back to my original plan and sticking to it.
NC.
I don't know why I tried to keep it alive. She dumped me but doesn't want anyone else to have me. So, I'm hanging on.
I feel terrible and haven't slept properly for weeks.
This is not healthy. I NEED to stick with it,

It's day one of NC for me. After reading and re reading other people's stories, I finally got it through my thick skull, how unhealthy the whole ordeal has been on me.
I've deleted her phone number, I do still have it on a piece of paper, it's in a box in the garage with all her letters and belongings. I'm not going on Facebook etc for a few months. All my close friends have my number so they can contact me via that.
It's really hard still. My close friend told me to keep remembering how she hurt me.
1. I got dumped by letter
2. She doesn't contact me on my birthday.
3.She then tells me a couple of days later that she was sorry and took all my presents back (who tells someone, this?)
4. she tells me she wants to see me, then says she is and idiot, then does contact me for a few days.
5.She tells me all her work problems and then tells me I'm the only one who understands.

I'm living with the consequences of my actions. I pushed her away when I was hurt. She ended it and couldn't cope but still wants me to be there or not there. It's on her rules.
She has to live with the consequences of her actions. NO ME.
It's Friday night and I'm sitting watching movies, Sad I know. I just need to have a weekend of alone time and then it's time to face the world. Plan university etc.
I guess I just need some advice on NC, Does it get any better? I just need some positive words, to keep me on track, I guess.

Thank you for taking the time to read.

Does it get any better?

Of course, time heals all wounds. The reason you don't see yourself progressing is because you are thinking way to far ahead. One day at a time.

Confidence don't't come from having all the answers it comes from being open to all the questions.

Repeat this phrase and BELIEVE IT

Say to yourself, I love me, I am the mason of my dreams, I am going to love myself enough to know that ignoring someone else issues is me settling. I will not settle. I will improve myself first. I will understand how difficult it is to change myself, I will realize how difficult it is to change others. I realize that there is no such thing as perfect conditions but accepting my imperfections as a perfect part of living. I will take each day at a time, and not fear my future. I will not regret my past, for it has made me who I am today . I will love myself first! And most importantly I will continue to be the best me I can be. Remember that we are human, and sometimes it takes a step back to see the clearer picture. I will not continue to make the same mistakes. I will learn from my mistake. I will accept loneliness as a blueprint to my success ahead and build my future based on my past. I will not look back but look ahead to brighter days. Now that I am on my path I will thank all those who have made me who I am today

Thank you. I have written it down and will repeat it until I believe it. The next couple of days will be tough but I am a strong person and will come out of this a better person.

Thankyou. I have written it down and will repeat it until i believe it. The next couple of days will be tough but i am a strong person and will come out of this a better person.

You will, I've been where you are, Guess what, I survived!!
Everyone healing process is different. But it has to get better, there is no other choice accept no other choice.

Day three of no contact. I've been having trouble sleeping. I feel typing it all here, will get it off my chest. I've exasperated my friends, too much already. The past couple of nights I've been dreaming of her. I awake to realise she's not here and I feel like I'm back to square one. I tell myself in the dreams if only I could see her, then she'll look into my eyes and fall back into my arms. I know this won't happen, Not the falling back into my arms bit. That is why she won't come to see me. She said that is what would happen. I can't go see her to talk, she lives 36 miles away. She has to want to see me, even though she does want to, she won't. I think that is why I'm dreaming about her. I feel so lost. NC is still being applied.

Keeping no contact has been difficult and has been broken, a few times. She instigated them and I stupidly thought this was progress.
She told me she wants to see me but she's just got a promotion and has been at work non stop. She wants to see me for more than just an hour so is that a good sign? Another message said she is scared to see me because she'll want me, kiss me and then get hurt again. Is there anything I can say or do to show her I've changed? I have changed for me, showing her will be difficult because we are 36 miles away. Am I still in denile? I text her today saying; 'do you want to come see me next week or the week after, no pressure, I'm not going to beg or try to kiss you. I just need closure?' but she hasn't replied. She was the one who told me not to cut her out of my life. I am just been eased out of her life or is she just working through things? She told me she loves and misses me, again. Then, if this is true. Why won't she work through it with me?

Keeping no contact has been difficult and has been broken, a few times. She instigated them and i stupidly thought this was progress.
She told me she wants to see me but she's just got a promotion and has been at work non stop. She wants to see me for more than just an hour so is that a good sign? Another message said she is scared to see me because she'll want me, kiss me and then get hurt again. Is there anything i can say or do to show her i've changed? I have changed for me, showing her will be difficult because we are 36 miles away. Am i still in denile? I text her today saying; 'do you want to come see me next week or the week after, no pressure, i'm not going to beg or try to kiss you. i just need closure?' but she hasn't replied. She was the one who told me not to cut her out of my life. I am just been eased out of her life or is she just working through things? She told me she loves and misses me, again. then, if this is true. Why won't she work throught it with me?

I went through this same situation, My ex kept telling me the same thing after he broke up with me , that he loved me with all his heart, but that our relationship wouldn't work because he is really busy at school and working, we lived 40 miles away form each other as well, he said it wasn't the time to be together, I was xtremly confused, how can someone tell you that he/she still loves you deeply but don't even want to TRY to make it work? To give us a chance again? Actually, I asked him that, and I got the same answer "it wont work, but I don't want to lose you, I can't imagine myself growing old with you" but still no intentions on trying to make our relationship work NOW, not in the FUTURE. You have no idea how much pain I felt every time he told me that, pain and anger, because he wasn't even trying, he was just stringing me to him, which I hated because that continuous "I love you's" kept me attached to him, making it so freakin hard to let go of him.. I realized that his supposed "love" wasn't honest, I've always thought , still do, that when someone REALLY TRULY LOVES YOU they WILL do or at least try to do anything in their power to keep you, if they don't they DO NOT LOVE YOU, as simple as that. Would you guys agree with this?

I know you're right. It's just that we talked tonight. She asked me about how work was going, we chatted as we used to. She even said to me to have a good day, tomorrow. She is in love with me and I am in love with her. I hurt her and she is scared. I can't tell her that I've turned my life around and got help and become positive because she won't believe me. I'd have to prove it. By doing that I'd have to see her. Do I ask her to see me or do I wait until she wants to? She said she wants to come see me or was she lying? I'm having a really tough time doing NC. Is there any other way?

I'm having a really tough time doing NC.
You haven't done no contact.

Is there any other way?
Easier way to do what?

I've had to re read all the posts that I had written down. I didin't make sense. I guess I'm prolonging the outcome. I didn't send the letter, I never told her I wanted to try again, my pride got in the way and I was too weak to keep no contact in case I hurt her feelings. What about mine?
I don't know why I'm keeping the spark alive in my head. I'm a romantic fantisist with so much to learn in life.

Your posts were merged to save the confusion and keep the whole story in one place.


I was dumped two months ago. It was because I kept pushing her away and she couldn't take it anymore and I broke her heart. We didn't go NC, we've been talking and getting on really well. I asked her on Friday if I could take her out on a date. She replied; 'That made me giggle, I think I can do that!'. I asked her when she is free, she replied; 'I'm not sure, I haven't got my rota's yet'. That was a few days ago and still no word. Is she really interested or am I being played?

It's very hard to tell. She might be scared that you'll hurt her again. Not enough information to really be able to tell.

In any case, if she doesn't respond in the next few days, call her up. She may have not gotten back to you yet because she's waiting to see if she'll be available, and doesn't want to make definitive plans until then.

Take a deep breath, and chill.

I just didn't want to seem needy and desperate, I'm confused to why she'd agree.

She agreed because she wants to go on a date with you and perhaps wants to try your relationship again.

Don't get your hopes too high, but it's a positive sign when someone says "yes" to a dating invitation.

I know it's a positive sign but I'm just a little worried.
I don't know how to take it. I'm happy she agreed but this non contact for a couple of days makes me think she may have regretted saying it.

You're playing the waiting game right now. I don't really know what else to say except wait it out. Or, call her in a few days and see if the date's still on.

It's better to know than to be left hanging.

Thanks, for your thoughts.
I'm in a weird position. I guess I should contact her and find out either way.

This all sounds confusing. You say you were dumped, but it sounds like you pushed her away. Now you are chasing her.

It sounds like you two are good friends that can't figure out if you want a deeper relationship. I'd say stick with the friendship and stop trying to ask her out as if it's a date.

What is a rota?

It's a schedule for work.
Her mum had a scare of swine flu. She's had to have time off work and has to make it up. She is very busy. Now she isn't sure whether she should go on one. Basically ignoring me.
I guess I'm just going to leave it now. I guess I am bothering her.

She said yes. You also said she's been busy. I doubt she's blowing you off.

All you have to do now is wait. While you wait do other things than wait on her- no use on wasting your time worrying.

Sarah

Who answers being asked out "that made me giggle"? Sounds like a weird situation to me...

It doesn't matter, anyay. It seems she is blatantly ignoring me. Yes she used the term 'giggle' can't have been that funny, surely?

Chill out. Wait until she contacts you. If she doesn't contact you the night before the date, then you can call her.

There is no date. She said yes but doesn't know when. She's blatantly ignoring me now and it has been days. I'm sorry but I don't see any positive to that. I'm chilled. Just a little upset that she said yes and actually meant no.

The positive is that at least now you know.

Well it really doesn't matter now. I snet a text saying thank you for the silent treatment and thank you for being honest. All you had to say was no. Guess that is the end of that.

I don't think you should have sent the text, it made you look needy.

It did. You are right and now I've messed up that chance. It's probably for the best that I just leave it alone, now. She said she isn't ready to start again, yet and I have to respect her wishes and actually move on.

Your posts were merged to save the confusion and keep the whole story in one place.


It's has been two months since my ex dumped me by letter. It's not like I have to see her everyday. She lives in another city. We were going to try again but she decided she wasn't ready and I freaked out. I told her to delete
Me from everything, I just couldn't cope, anymore. I suggested maybe, one day we could be friends, at some point. Just nor right now as it still too painful. It's a shame. We spent two wonderful years, together. We are both still in love with each other. My stupidity of bottling my problems of late, up. Just pushed her away and broke her heart. I didn't mean too. It was just my coping mechanism. Which isn't an excuse. I've even gotten help. There isn't anything I can do to show her this. She won't let
Me and she won't let me go. I feel she is trying to
Keep me around until either she can, try again or can realise she doesn't want me like that. Either way it's tearing me apart. We text talked, bad idea, I know and I realised that I am the one in bits, I am the one not sleeping or not going out with friends. Bar the past two months I tret her like a princess, I wasn't a bad girlfriend. Her friends and mine even said I was the best girlfriend, ever! Anyway, I digress. Whilst text talking I realised, that this was just too painful and I didn't reply. Every time, I thought about doing it. I'd put on a song, have a cry or text a friend. That's is why I'm writing on here now. To get it out. I've exasperated this topic with friends and family and I don't want them to see me like this, anymore. It has been two months. I feel like I got dumped, yesterday. I have terrible
Problems sleeping... As she invades my dreams constantly. I feel like maybe I need professional help? Don't get me wrong. I'm not a total
Misery. Whilst at work and when I manage to go out, very rarely. I always put
My game face on and try to make the most of it. I'm still incredibly screwed up and need advice.
Like this anymore. I

I'm sorry for your pain. Break ups take a long time to get over. I know am in middle of one. One step at the time one day at the time is how I try to core. Good luck

The first thing is there is no need to start new questions, just add to the original one, that saves the confusion.

Secondly you should be seeing that false hope has you running into a brick wall, and should leave the girl alone, and get your own life, without here.

Your right about one thing, its over, and has been for a long time, but you just keep trying to change her mind, and that seldom works.

Change your tactics, and disappear from her life as she has yours. No Contact was made for you.