jaimie02
Jul 4, 2009, 03:39 PM
I am currently go through some really tough times.
Im super stressed about my senior year of high school
I am super stressed about finding, applying, paying for college
I am very into politics, which right now is causing me slight anxiety
I am on edge because my family fights constantly. My dad mocks everything about me and can't accept me for me. ANd its impossible to talk to him and tell him how I feel. Ive tried it and he just mocks me more
On top of it I've been talking to this amazing guy, I am really really into him. We care about each other a lot, but a full out relationship is impossible because he is currently stationed in japan with the marines. Oh, and my mom totally disapproves because of our age difference and the fact that he has tattoos (she has friends with tatoos.. she knows it means nothing bad)
Our main form of contact is online. We have occasional long late night convos on the phone, but its really getting tough. But this realationship is teaching me how to be much stronger emotionally. This was until he told me that if for some reason we end up going to war with Korea, he will be among the first to be deployed. Well now Korea is launching missles and crap, which is really worring me.
I don't think I can stay strong anymore. I feel like if I don't do something soon I'm goonna have a horrible break down. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about it because my family will just make me feel like I'm too whinny.. and I don't have a lot of really close friends, and the ones I do have.. well I don't know I just doent feel comfortable complainign to them. I would talk to that guy... because we litterlly talk about everything with each other, but I don't want to tell him because I don't want him to think I complain too much.
Oh and I haven't slept a full night in MONTHS!
Sorry this was so long. What should I do and how should I go about keeping my sanity?
Im super stressed about my senior year of high school
I am super stressed about finding, applying, paying for college
I am very into politics, which right now is causing me slight anxiety
I am on edge because my family fights constantly. My dad mocks everything about me and can't accept me for me. ANd its impossible to talk to him and tell him how I feel. Ive tried it and he just mocks me more
On top of it I've been talking to this amazing guy, I am really really into him. We care about each other a lot, but a full out relationship is impossible because he is currently stationed in japan with the marines. Oh, and my mom totally disapproves because of our age difference and the fact that he has tattoos (she has friends with tatoos.. she knows it means nothing bad)
Our main form of contact is online. We have occasional long late night convos on the phone, but its really getting tough. But this realationship is teaching me how to be much stronger emotionally. This was until he told me that if for some reason we end up going to war with Korea, he will be among the first to be deployed. Well now Korea is launching missles and crap, which is really worring me.
I don't think I can stay strong anymore. I feel like if I don't do something soon I'm goonna have a horrible break down. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about it because my family will just make me feel like I'm too whinny.. and I don't have a lot of really close friends, and the ones I do have.. well I don't know I just doent feel comfortable complainign to them. I would talk to that guy... because we litterlly talk about everything with each other, but I don't want to tell him because I don't want him to think I complain too much.
Oh and I haven't slept a full night in MONTHS!
Sorry this was so long. What should I do and how should I go about keeping my sanity?