I tell my friends and family varying degrees of truth-when I talk to them. I just can't trust their reactions to some things and am never satisfied with their advice or responses to other things.

Then for some reason I find people I don't know on the internet and spill my guts. I find their words and advice more comforting. However, they don't know me or care about me, so I'm sure they don't really want to hear all my problems or what I did today, and so on.

So how do I just shut it? I think I'm very attention seeking, and I know this is undesirable. I've been this way for a long time. I remember being little and standing on the couch yelling for my parents to pay attention. People always complain I'm quiet, but I say it's because I shouldn't have to yell to be heard. I think I stopped really communicating with my family and friends on a large part because I feel like they don't listen or care. It's to the point where I get bored half way through what I'm saying, because even I don't want to hear me. I don't even expect responses from people (nor to this). I just want to stop being so annoying, but it's hard when I'm incredibly impulsive-especially when I'm tired (like now).

How do I fix this?

Hun,
We all extedn the truth sometimes. And we all crave attention. No one can say they don't. The way to fix this is to figure out why you crave that attention. Also realize that your family and friends love you more than anything. Some just show it differently. And honestly if they love you they care. Sometime people get upset when you talk about the same things over and over again. When they'll given you an answer prior to that. And you're not always to never are going to get the answer you want fomr people, you just have to except that. The real answer lies within you. You need to have more faith in yourself. You know your problem, so you have to be able to figure out how to fix it, it just might take time. But don't just give up, believe you will be able to resolve them. But at the same time, you have to rely on someone else, you can't just keep it in. And also it's always easier to tell someone you don't know your problems to someone you don't know then some stranger. Especially when their on the internet, because you put a sense of trust into them; knowing they can't tell anyone, and if they judge you, it doesn't matter.. because you don't know or love them, or have any emotional ties to them. I hope I helped.. I'm sorry about all this happening in your life.. smile, have faith, and take a deep breath in, and relax.

I attention seek because I have no outlets. I'm alone most of the time. I withdrew too much, so I rarely go out with friends anymore. For some reason, when they do invite me, I still usually don't go. It's never a good time. I can never seem to make myself move, though I want to.

I just feel annoying and like a bad person. I feel like life is pointless because I believe nothing happens when we die. So if nothing happens when we die, and we cease to exist in any way, shape, or form therefore won't exist to reflect on our lives-then what's the point in anything? I don't like myself, and I don't have anyone to talk to. Even if I do talk, it never helps. Even with feeling like this, I'd never do anything. I want to change, but I feel like this is all I'm good for.

That's probably why I'm never satisfied when I talk to people. There's no magic solution to hating yourself.

Okay Hunnn. I First off, I am so sorry. I hope things eventually work ou for you. But I used to have Depression. It made me feel horrible all the time, I never wanted to do anything, never hung out with my friends, and I just hated every little thing about me. I live and lived a complicated life. I know how it feels. Sometimes I felt the same way. All you can do is see a therapist and see if that's what's wrong. I it is just follow what he or she says and eventually things will get better. You just have to believe it will get better. If you don't it just stay the same. Just figure someone or thing out that you would never give up and hold onto them. I am here if you ever need anyone to talk to. It helps a lot. But anyway, I believe a doctor would help, they'll give you what you need. (medicine, etc.) I'm here