View Full Version : Confused about life
kelsa
May 30, 2009, 12:23 PM
Well seeing how I can't find anyone to talk to out in the world I decided to look up people online. Hopefully I've come to the right website... I am currently 17 and can't do anything because I don't have a social security number etc. Anyway, I am currently a junior in school and I am finishing up. But recently I've met this boy who has cought my attention.We began exchanging texts and so things got dirty anyway we haven't done anything really besides talking. But I think I'm falling for him. So I don't know if I'm bi or not... Now another part, I'm addicted to the computer I can't stop playing games.. im stuck on it 24/7! I need help! And now today I got into a big fight with my mom and said "im tired of living here i want to move out already" she then yelled back to me sayig she's going to send me to ecuador with my dad... yes my mom and dad are devorced... so then I replied "im 18 ill do w/e i want to do"... she spend the rest of the afternoon in the living room crying... I don't know what to do... I can't stand my step dad his always lying to my mom and always mistreating her... not physically but mentally.. you know hanging the phone up on her... etc me and him don't get along I mean we don't say anything to each other but deep down I know we don't like each other... im now not only confused whether I'm bi or not... but now said stuff to my mom who works on a bar in the weekends to help pay for the bills... she has raised me alone my whole life and now I regret every single thing I said but I'm too scared to go apologize.. I need some help anyone out there please?
Clough
May 30, 2009, 02:06 PM
Hi, kelsa!
Okay, one thing at a time here...
Is there a problem with you getting a Social Security Card?
Thanks!
kelsa
May 30, 2009, 05:59 PM
Yes, I'm not a citizen or anything like that my mom has to get married to my step dad and get our papers straighten out 1st :( which they are "working" on...
By the way mom hasn't spoken to me all day :(
Clough
May 30, 2009, 06:36 PM
Hi again, kelsa!
Well, at least the social security thing is in the works, so to speak.
When is the marriage going to happen?
Why hasn't your mom spoken to you all day, please?
Thanks!
kelsa
May 30, 2009, 06:38 PM
Oh because of the big fight we had today, I wrote part of it in the post :(... and also I don't know whether I should tell her I'm bi or not I'm scarred.
Clough
May 30, 2009, 07:39 PM
Since your almost of adult age, I would suggest waiting to tell your parents about your sexual orientation. Doing so now, might just possibly open up a whole can of worms to what is already going on.
Probably best not to fuel the fire at this point.
Are you sure that you're bi?
Thanks!
kelsa
May 30, 2009, 08:35 PM
I'm not exactly sure, I'm talking to a guy now his 16 and he is bi. We have exchanged text both regular and sexual once. We met the other day in school but nothing happen although we later that day talked again over txt about how bad we wanted to kiss each other :/ but I don't know on Monday were going to hang out.
Clough
May 31, 2009, 05:54 PM
Okay, I would appreciate knowing what happens when you hang out.
This texting thing has really gotten out of hand. People are much more genuine and readable when they speak on the phone or speak with each other in person.
I would also suggest, not exchanging things in communication in any way about something that might be sexual.
Getting to know each other by what you might both want to be in order to realize your individual self-worth is something much more important than sex and is something that could potentially last you a lifetime together.
Thanks!
kelsa
Jun 1, 2009, 07:41 PM
Well, I'm still feeling for him... were going to meet up tomorrow and c what happens >.> I'm confused I don't know if I'm just bi curious or actually bi ;(
kelsa
Jun 2, 2009, 02:58 PM
Hmm well today we pretty much ignored each other in school. Didn't say one word at all... however we did have that little game where u look at someone and when they turn around u quickly look away... its was going on the whole day lol... but yea when I got home we decided to just stay as friends but something tells me inside that we still have feelings for each other.
Clough
Jun 2, 2009, 09:28 PM
Hi again, kelsa!
I would suggest taking things slow with this guy and seeing what happens in time. It's common for people to have feelings for friends.
Is he interested in anyone else, like a boyfriend/girlfriend thing?
Thanks!
kelsa
Jun 3, 2009, 09:38 AM
Yea, so yesterday he told me through a text that we should just be friends because to be honest he was talking to someone else before me... so now I'm stuck here with this confused feeling inside... I actually asked him if we should pretend like this never happened and just not talk anymore... but he decided we should stay friends( is this a sign that he might be interested?) so yea. School ends tomorrow and tomorrow before school I am to meet up with him and give him a puppy. Should I go for a kiss just to see if there is anything there? Or just give him the puppy and walk away?? I'm super confused and don't know what to do! Should I write him a note telling him how I feel?? I was thinking about doing that and in the note putting that I would delete his number from my phone until he is ready? Maybe he texts me something back?? I really don't know anymore :(! When this all started it was as he really liked me but then from one day to the other he said he doesn't feel confterable around me. I txted him saying I'm really sorry and was wondering what I did wrong but he never gave me a answer? Maybe he has feelings for me and is just finding an excuse to try and forget about me? Or am I just taking this all wrong?
kelsa
Jun 3, 2009, 01:20 PM
I posted a thread previesly about many issues I was going through, however I already fixed most of them except this one...
All right well I've notice this kid that hangs around where I do. And everyone knows his bi... I always thought he was cute but in a non liking way just regular guy to guy judgment... so the other day I over heard him talking about how his mother wanted puppies and seeing how my dog just delivered a new litter I took that as an excuse to talk to him. So I got his number and he got mine. As soon as the bell rang after school I decided to text him... however I made up a story that it was raining outside and that I was soaked to see what he would reply, knowing he was bi I knew that he would repsond with something sexual. And so he did he replied
Him:"need help drying up" jk lol.
Me:"Yea but depends what your going to use" oh you said jk nvm lol.
Him:"idk you tell me what you want me to use"
Me:"your tongue"
Him:"what exactly is wet?"
Me:"Everything"
And so text kept going all day long. And so I txted him at the end
Me:"we should meet up before school starts".
Him:"sure".
So we met up the next morning and we were just like starring and talking regularly. Next thing I know people start getting to school. So I asked him if he wanted to come with me to my 2nd period teacher cuzz I had to talk to her, and he said OK. So as we started walking up the stairs I felt like kissing him but I didn't. After I finish speaking to my 2nd period teacher we headed for the stairs. At one point got pretty close to him and was going for the kiss but I decided not to, I was scarred. So w/e after school I txted him.
Me:"i felt like kissing you"
Him:"you should of"
Me:"what would u of done".
Him:"kissed you back"
Me:"ugh dang"
The txting had been going on back and forth. BUT it seems like I over did it because it got to the point where he felt unconfterble around me. Like yesterday we were in the same class all day and we wouldn't talk or anything. He was playing uno and I decided to text him asking him if I can play? He replied by saying "yea but imma feel unconfterble so i replied by saying "nvm then". Anyways that day idk if it was just me but we kept playing that he stares at me then looks away when i look at him game. and so then later that day we all got together to play uno and it was about 6 ppl so the game started and i thought it was his turn so i kept looking at him.and then he says ''stop" but I was like "go" he replied "its not my turn" I was like oh wow everyone laughed... oh but the night before we had this conversation and he txed me that he had been talking to someone else before me. So I asked him why did he say he liked me and all this stuff. And he replied by saying"idk i just don't know". So then I txted him "want to pretend like we never met and pretend this whole thing never happened, or just stay friends?" he replied " stay friends" I mean I don't know like when we txted it was all how he wanted me and all this stuff. They were all really deep messages. He told me he liked me and everything. He said "i really like you, your honest and cute" <3. but I don't know all of a sudden he dnst anymore. So like I'm confused because I don't know if I like him or have a crush on him or if I'm just bi curious. I mean if he really didn't feel right around me he would have told me that we should pretend this never happen and stop talking but he put be friends. I really don't understand. Yesterday I txted him if there is anyway we can fix this.. he replied by telling me "i already told you im talking to someone else." I don't know whether he is confused or just scarred to fall for me... im going to see him tomorrow morning before the last day of school to give him the puppy and I don't know if I should attempt to kiss him or just give him a letter explaining how I feel.. and then in the bottom put "i deleted ur number from my phone, ill be ready when you are, text me back if you feel like there is something we can do about this."
Some events I missed out where that during the day where he was playing uno he was around this other kid.. and they seem to be not exactly but some what flirting and I got kind of jelouse... also I texted him 2 days ago "im going to be in school early if you want to talk and try to see if there is another way you know where to meet me." when I go there he wasn't there but the back door was open which is where he usually comes through... so I don't know if he passed by and didn't see me and just left... I got there kind late. And no one was there... Also when we had met up that morning he kept saying in a low pitch voice "this is so weird"
So what you guys think I should do!? Please help
JudyKayTee
Jun 3, 2009, 01:28 PM
I think you should clean up your act and spend the time you spend texting this guy learning how to spell -
This should also be combined with your other threads on the same subject.
kelsa
Jun 3, 2009, 01:45 PM
I think you should clean up your act and spend the time you spend texting this guy learning how to spell -
This should also be combined with your other threads on the same subject.
What do you mean by clean up my act? I'm sorry. I'm new to forums and I wasn't sure how to combine the threads :(
Curlyben
Jun 3, 2009, 01:48 PM
>Threads Merged<
kelsa
Jun 3, 2009, 01:51 PM
Thank you very much :)
Clough
Jun 3, 2009, 02:04 PM
Hi, kelsa!
Now that your threads have been merged, please stick to this one thread.
You're doing an awful lot of analyzing of your situation when you could be spending more positive and proactive time doing other things.
He's already stated that he doesn't feel comfortable around you and that he's talking to someone else. Unfortunately, that may be the way that you're going to have to settle and leave things. You might not find out the reasons as to why.
Are you interested in anyone else? Also, please don't use any sort of chat speak on this site, if you want to be understood the best. The most helpful people to you might be from another part of the world and English may not be their main language, so using chat speak might make it difficult for them to help you the best.
Thanks!
kelsa
Jun 3, 2009, 03:05 PM
Ok, will do :). Hes actually texting me right now give me a few to see what he says.
Clough
Jun 3, 2009, 05:36 PM
So, what happened, kelsa?
kelsa
Jun 3, 2009, 09:08 PM
Well, we just texted about regular stuff. He was wondering about the puppies and so yea nothing more. I did tell him I'm going out this weekend and that if he wanted to come he was more then welcome. He said he will think about it. But not pressure or anything I mean I'm going to have to let him go although I know its going to be hard.
Clough
Jun 3, 2009, 09:26 PM
Yes, no pressure on either part is best. I'm glad that you've come to the determination that you can let him go if you need to.
Thanks!
kelsa
Jun 5, 2009, 05:15 PM
Is it possible to fall in love with someone that you've only met in 1day?
Clough
Jun 6, 2009, 01:10 PM
It's possible to have a crush on someone in a very short period, but not real love.
Thanks!
kelsa
Jun 6, 2009, 09:34 PM
Yea, it must have been a crush.I'm no longer feeling anything for him, just a tad.
Clough
Jun 7, 2009, 12:26 AM
Hi again, kelsa!
Then, it was just a crush. Are there any other possibilities out there for you concerning having a relationship?
Thanks!