Im 13 yrs old and my gran died not long ago.
she was always there for me and I don't know what to do.
she became a fann of the alcohol when her husband died(before I was born he was dead along with both my dads parents so she was and still is so special to me) eventually the alcohol gave her a bad bad bad case of dementia. She never remembered anything anyone. Even my family stopped going to see her except for me! Every morning at 10 am on the dott I would go keep her company and bare with her illness. It was so hard for she forgot everything. I tried explaining who people were and walked her to see her old friends who stopped talking to her. I watched her get worse and worse and eventually her cancer in her throat came back. She went to a home and I would still go see her. She was near death and was taken to hopital and she came back! My gran who she really was ! It was like the dementia was gone for a while! She told us we were beautiful and loved us and she then forgot everything again. She called me over and said "love I remember u coming to see me everymorning but forgot everythong else. She then passed away. I made a speech at her funeral I thought I would get to upset or get to nervous but I know it was her who helped me block everyone else out and I simply just read it to my granny! I'm having so much trouble coping with her death and I just want to see her again! I look for ways to connect but I don't know what to do! Have u got any suggestions how? X :(

Dear,

I can imagine how sad it is and how are you felling.But this is the life everyone must go throgh this!Even you have seen your granny I didn't saw my both granny(one from mother side and another from father side)but still I will believe that she is in heaven and blessing me all the time.My granny died because of she had cancer too.Dont stay down try again believe that she is always blessing you and watching you.You will feel that her in you in your heart.So please life must go on! Anyway I am a malaysian girl but I`m in germany now and I`m 12.It was nice to hear someone who had the same probelem like me.

I suggest some kind of grief or loss counseling.

Ye I geuss ill always miss her but will get through it.
When I need her I just hope she's there with me and talk...

Thanks I feel the same it is nice to know you no how I'm feeling!

X

Everybody has found closure with my grans death and I haven't. I never was the closest with her, we lived 7 hours apart. I feel as if I didn't appreciate her as much as I should have. I'm in the process of writing a song about her, and I hope it will bring closure. Every night, I pray to god asking him to tell my gran I love her, and miss her every day.