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CornFed
Apr 21, 2009, 09:06 PM
There's always been a lot of drama in my life. I really hate it. It's really gotten to be so much I really don't know what to do anymore. I've been opening a lot more to friends about my problems and I sometimes feel like I'm bombarding them with a bunch of negativity.

I hate having such a drama filled life, but I don't want to really bother people when it comes to my problems. I'm going through a separation, soon to be divorce with my abusive husband. I've never been independent so I'm kind of scared.

I just don't want to bother people anymore about my problems- I feel like I'm boring them, I'm usually happy and cheerful- but I have so many issues that bother me.

How can I make this drama go away, is there any way I can resolve issues on my own?

21boat
Apr 21, 2009, 09:50 PM
I've been opening a lot more to friends about my problems and I sometimes feel like I'm bombarding them with a bunch of negativity.

They way I see it if they are truly real Friends they will be there to listen as a good close friend should do. Just by saying Sorry I don't want to bother you with my problems shows a wonderful respect to that friend. If they can't handle that then maybe they need notched down a bit on the true friend chart.

You are going through a big change and an emotional tough time now. Let It out is always a good first step.

Remember one of your friends could be in your position for different reasons if they are married. The "drama" can and will eventually go away. This is a traumatic event/hurt in your life. Its like asking someone that hit there toe and broke not to show pain or emotion. This is very normal for most all. I have gone through a divorce in my life with children involved. Time is your best friend also. So pick a good friend explain what you wrote here and go from there, you may be surprised how it works out.

CornFed
Apr 21, 2009, 10:30 PM
It's kind of hard to explain. I don't really have close friends, I have internet friends, work friends and friends that I haven't seen in a long time and keep in contact once in a while. I'm not close with my family, actually kind of estranged with them.

I have big problems like: being raped and molested, being lied to by everyone that I've ever cared about.

Sometimes I just want to shoot myself in the head. What's weird is that I am a happy person on the outside, but when I lay in bed at night I feel so alone, messed up and hope I don't wake up. My life just sucks, I can never have any peace.