For some reason I am really depressed. I don't feel like I have any friends etc. I have been on the computer all night and just can't get my thoughts out of the future. I mean I mean I am worried about everything like don't want to turn 40 years old here in May afraid my family will die and won't be able to take care of myself( I am disabled) I have the fear of being alone. I have friends but there not like real close where they would do anything for me.My best friend who was really close to me that I could tell her anything is in prison.(I miss her) I should be happy! I have a great home, I am married. I have pets but I just not happy. Mabie my medicine just not working anymore. I have been like this off and on for awhile now. I just don't let people know. I sick of having bipolar but I know I have to except it and move on. I hate being disabled. I shouldn't be upset with that but I am about that time to time. I know I should be grateful cause I know there's someone out there worse than me. I just don't understand why I am feeling the way I am... Thanks Jill:( PS I am so glad I found this website.

You say you're bipolar, has this been diagnosed? If not, as the other poster advised, confirm the problem. Sounds like Depression, which is very, very treatable! Hope you will get professional help now, even if it's the emergency room (they know what to do.) Best of luck, and keep us posted my friend...

You say you're bipolar, has this been diagnosed? If not, as the other poster advised, confirm the problem. Sounds like Depression, which is very, very treatable! Hope you will get professional help now, even if it's the emergency room (they know what to do.) Best of luck, and keep us posted my friend... Hi. Yes I have been diagnosed and yes I'm on medication. Also I will keep you all posted.

Everyone has to make a good positive effort to make a good life for him or herself no matter what illnesses one has... physical or emotional.

You have to get on the right track... have regular hours which you sleep along the lines of 11PM to 7AM. Eat regular healthy meals and get regular exercise every day.

Take your meds regularly and on time.
No illegal drugs or alcohol.

Schedule activities that you enjoy and use some time for altruistic purposes such as a volunteer. Give of yourself to others. :)

Make some new friends and have regular times together. Decrease your computer time dreastically... there is usually no real substance there. Have real life friends first!

Making a happy life rests firmly on the individual who wants to be happy, not miserable. It takes a lot of effort and is worth it. :)

Best wishes in the future, :)