Hi

This is a problem that I've been struggling with for years.I'm 25 now yet I still feel lost or stuck. I can't seem to find or know what I want but I keep finding myself uncomfortable and dissatisfied in my life.I graduated 2 years ago and so far I have worked in three different job fields not related to my study. I was working in Canada then I lost my job and after I stayed 3 to 4 months without a job,I freaked out and was desperate to do something or work somewhere else.I managed to get a job in the Gulf. I was optimistic at first but this sudden change of lifestyle,work,people, etc... was big blow to me. I accepted it as being normal and kept moving on.Its almost going to be a year now since I started my new job but thorughout this year, I was continuously feeling the same feelings every single day. The work envioronment and the people I;m working with make the job disgusting. I find myself hating my job everyday and I keep asking myself "Why the hell am I doing this when I can easily get out of it?" but I just move on. My lifestyle also has deteriorated. Very few friends,no social life,fatigue. I have continuous mood changes during the day and that happens every day.I feel like I'm fighting with myself.I zone out a lot and think about other things. What's disturbing is that I've been feeling like that 90% of the time and it feels like torture.It's like I'm totally uncomfortable and unconvinced of what I'm doing with my life and at the same time I can't think of an alternative at the time being which then leads me asking other questions like "What's my purpose?".Why can't I find something I enjoy doing?Why can't I balance my life? Why do I feel like that have sudden change of minds and during the day everyday?Why can't I be decisive and pick something?I've done lots of thinking and I keep going in circles with no conclusion.
My family supports me but the problem is they have been influential throughout my life so the thing is most of my life I haven't been able to take full control of myself.It's not anyone wouldn't let me but when you people telling you things in your ear for a long time,it becomes confusing.I don't if I'm making any sense anymore.All I know is that I was in a bad situation where I was dissatisfied in my life and I tried to change and I ended up being in worse manner.
I'm not a pessimist but I believe I can be somewhere more suitable and better and that there's definitely something out there to fulfill my passion.
If anyone understands me,please tell me how you overcame it.

Yourr body is missing a thing it hasn't had in a while ,think about when you think that this all has started and see what could be making this all acure.Somthing in your past is bothering you like something was left unfinisheddd mabee?

What do you like to do? What is your field of study?

I know how you feel . I have had more different jobs than anybody I know and it was because I can't keep going to a job I hate. Although it is necessary at times to avoid starvation.

What I did was keep trying different things until I found the ones that worked.
It is not an easy thing to do. I was constantly sending resumes , filling out applications, and being available for interviews while working 8 hours or more every day.

But I eventually found the ones that worked for me.
Some I liked so much I would look forward to going work.
But that was when I was working underground , a hard rock miner. They paid me to blow things up!

Keep looking and don't be afraid to try different things. How else are you going to find what you want?

I can only say by what I get out of your letter... I seem to hear you worry so much about not holding down a job. I would think that one thing you may want to do is, have a check up at the doctors and talk to them about something to help you focus better. You are young and I do not know what your life is like. However, if you are not living a healthy life style and not getting enough rest, it would certainly hinder this problem. You say you are fatigued.. This could be a form of depression as well. You may not think you are depressed but maybe you are!
If you are checked and your Dr. thinks you need to be on this type of med's, then, you would be amazed at how much better you would look at life and be able to focus!
I may be way off base here, this is just my opinion...
Good luck and God Bless!
Carolina