I am a muslim woman who had sex before marriage and after marriage too with three different men. I hate to call myself a muslim but I don't to know why I hve indulged in adultery knowing that it is haram and feeling that I love those guys.
I want forgiveness.should I expect any forgiveness from Allah because I knew what I was doing was wrong. Help me and tell me what I should now? I hate myself for doing this and betraying my husband and Allah.

Do not hate yourself we all have our weaknesses.
Start with forgiving yourself than the first step is made.
You know that you did wrong but you realized this by selfhonesty, try also to be honest to your husband and your loved ones that's the only responsibility you have, even if it would mean the end of a relation. We have to take responsibility for our actions.

Try to find out why you could not be faithfull to your husband cause for everything is a reason.

Allah swt forgives any sin except shirk. Let your repentance be truly from your heart, and stay away from all sources of temptations. Also, perform many good deeds, as good deeds abrogate the bad ones.

Pray for forgiveness and guidance, Allah is merciful and compassionate.

First being a women we are sensitive beings ,emotional, and most women look for strong men. Being that we are made to be how we are by nature we need stability. I can tell that you have issues with self esteem. You may think , giving yourself to various men will give
You the confidence you need,how ever doing right things in your life is more gratifing.Be patient and learn how to do righht because it is right to do, know that the Allah is the only JUGDE and be it safe I say that , for you to change.

You need to forgive yourself. Yes He will forgive you.

You also need to turn away from your sin and stop behaving in such a way.

You betrayed your husband, why did you do this? Get to the bottom of it so it never happens again.

Does your husband know of this?

i am a muslim woman who had sex before marriage and after marriage too with three different men. i hate to call myself a muslim but i dont to know why i hve indulged in adultery knowing that it is haram and feeling that i love those guys.
i want forgiveness.should i expect any forgiveness from Allah because i knew what i was doing was wrong. help me and tell me what i should now? i hate myself for doing this and betraying my husband and Allah.

My sister, forget anything you heard please and pay attention;

Al Tawba or returning back to God has 3 rules

1- Be regretful and admitting what you did was wrong
2- Stopping whatever wrong your were doing
3- Not going back to what you were doing with true heart and well (no faking)

Now whatever you were doing even if you killed someone God is the most merciful, full stop.