xHypoCondriacx
Feb 7, 2009, 08:51 PM
What do you do when you feel hopeless, A Fool, for falling in love, Or a fool for falling in love with a girl you don't trust, U would think after 2 years you would grow trust, although I can't say with my own eyes, that I ever saw anything happen, Its just a gut feeling that is stuck with me, and I don't trust her, now she acts different, Wants to make a new myspace account, wants to go on a diet, wants to go to her friends, by herself, for a "girls night"
I mean , I don't have a boys night, or go on myspace, I just work, and no play!
Its not fair, And part of me doesn't want this person in my life, and the other shasty part of me, wants her, or maybe is just afraid to be alone again.
This sucks, it sucks big time,
I gave up a lot for this chick, friends, life, fun, activities, and now all my so called fun, is done with her, and she doesn't have a problem with me going out alone, I mean to me that says she doesn't give a shiest
I'm so sick of this, really sick of this!!
It gets me angry, and hurt, yet I can't shed a tear, but my heart really feels hurt, she says its no big deal, well it is to ME!! well there's nothing to worry about..
And I know what you guys are thinking, stop being paranoid, stop this , stop that, learn to do this and that, truth is I tried , and it doesn't change me. I can't change me,
I tried to be a good guy, I was ready to settle down and devote my whole life to her, no matter how fat she got after having the baby, that sounds harsh, but how else can I put it, I vowed to love her, and I have, and obviously, I take a lot of shast! To keep my promise, I know things never turn out the way you want them too.. but damn this is fawked up
I need help, spiritual, Or mental, I don't know
I think she is a liar, a cheater, or a girl who would cheat first chance she got, now I'm stuck, in this sh1th0l3
I'm 21, and still got time to go, what can I do man!
I mean , I don't have a boys night, or go on myspace, I just work, and no play!
Its not fair, And part of me doesn't want this person in my life, and the other shasty part of me, wants her, or maybe is just afraid to be alone again.
This sucks, it sucks big time,
I gave up a lot for this chick, friends, life, fun, activities, and now all my so called fun, is done with her, and she doesn't have a problem with me going out alone, I mean to me that says she doesn't give a shiest
I'm so sick of this, really sick of this!!
It gets me angry, and hurt, yet I can't shed a tear, but my heart really feels hurt, she says its no big deal, well it is to ME!! well there's nothing to worry about..
And I know what you guys are thinking, stop being paranoid, stop this , stop that, learn to do this and that, truth is I tried , and it doesn't change me. I can't change me,
I tried to be a good guy, I was ready to settle down and devote my whole life to her, no matter how fat she got after having the baby, that sounds harsh, but how else can I put it, I vowed to love her, and I have, and obviously, I take a lot of shast! To keep my promise, I know things never turn out the way you want them too.. but damn this is fawked up
I need help, spiritual, Or mental, I don't know
I think she is a liar, a cheater, or a girl who would cheat first chance she got, now I'm stuck, in this sh1th0l3
I'm 21, and still got time to go, what can I do man!